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Hello.Back from Ohio.Its been a long long week and still have so much to do.I know I've been off since Wednesday but somehow it just doesn't feel like it.I've had little of no sleep since everythings happened and I have overdue bills to make up.It seems like every part of my life is going to shit.I'm gonna have to go to a doctor and try to get on something or I don't think I'm gonna make it.Cause right now all I feel is hopelessness and the more I think about it the more I envy my father.Hes in a better place then I am,no worry of bills,health,lovelife or anything-no worries of nothing-I want that too.Kind of wish I could join him,Cause at this point in time I have nothing to look forward to but shit.Plus I haven't really had time to grieve cause I've had to be strong for my mother and family all week.Anyway back and don't care if I see another fucking airplane the rest of my life.Blessed be