(no subject)
i'm at college, but i don't want to take the 'normal' root of the college education
i don't want a job that just pisses me off
i want to enjoy life
be outside
i don't want to be stuck inside
i don't care if i'm smart enough to get a job that pays a lot of money, it doesn't get motivate me
the world is huge, no one really knows their point here, we can only use history to see how the world became what it is today, you just slide into a pre-fit mold, there's really no true choosing what your life will be.
you can't do anything extraordinary because our minds our unable to comprehend a way of life that NO ONE else has.
I don't understand why people value education so much when a true education is that learned by simply living.
Clearing a new height in pole vault makes me satisfied, getting an A on a test or in a class... its not really that big of a deal to me.
why would a lifestyle that i make for myself through something that doesn't really excite me be the one that i should have?
Live in my head for just one day
I see myself and look away
The road is showing now on my face
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away
I wish that I could disappear
So I could be no one again
Because in life you sink or swim
Sometimes these shoes don't feel right in my head
I know it kills you I'm this way
There's something different every day
My every thought is undermined
By all the history inside
I know I hear the words you said
I just can't get them through my head
Must be like living with the dead
Waiting for me to begin
To do the things that I have said
And for this I'm sorry
So there's some truth to what you say
Fuck you to the jaded and the fake
Like to see what you would do
Fuck you and the judgements that you make
We're not all perfect just like you
If someone showed you the way
Would you take the wheel and steer?
It hurts me that your not ashamed
Of what you're doing here
If they jumped off a bridge
Would you meet them on the ground?
Everyone plays the hand they're dealt
And learns to walk through life themselves
Not everything in life is handed on a plate
When people think your words are true
It doesn't matter what you do
And you blindly go through life
Judging only but it's worth
Just try not to forget
It's not what it was before
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
These are my words
That I've never said before
I think I'm doing okay
And this is the smile
That I've never shown before
I'm so afraid of waking
And all of mistakes one life can take
They all finally start to go away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
But in some way, hope it fucks with you
That I'm okay and I've made it through
Locked deep inside, my place to hide
To hide from how you made me feel
I learned to live without a pride
Just a shell, with me stuck inside
Did he finally pull through like me?
Finding himself, not needing help
i don't want a job that just pisses me off
i want to enjoy life
be outside
i don't want to be stuck inside
i don't care if i'm smart enough to get a job that pays a lot of money, it doesn't get motivate me
the world is huge, no one really knows their point here, we can only use history to see how the world became what it is today, you just slide into a pre-fit mold, there's really no true choosing what your life will be.
you can't do anything extraordinary because our minds our unable to comprehend a way of life that NO ONE else has.
I don't understand why people value education so much when a true education is that learned by simply living.
Clearing a new height in pole vault makes me satisfied, getting an A on a test or in a class... its not really that big of a deal to me.
why would a lifestyle that i make for myself through something that doesn't really excite me be the one that i should have?
Live in my head for just one day
I see myself and look away
The road is showing now on my face
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away
I wish that I could disappear
So I could be no one again
Because in life you sink or swim
Sometimes these shoes don't feel right in my head
I know it kills you I'm this way
There's something different every day
My every thought is undermined
By all the history inside
I know I hear the words you said
I just can't get them through my head
Must be like living with the dead
Waiting for me to begin
To do the things that I have said
And for this I'm sorry
So there's some truth to what you say
Fuck you to the jaded and the fake
Like to see what you would do
Fuck you and the judgements that you make
We're not all perfect just like you
If someone showed you the way
Would you take the wheel and steer?
It hurts me that your not ashamed
Of what you're doing here
If they jumped off a bridge
Would you meet them on the ground?
Everyone plays the hand they're dealt
And learns to walk through life themselves
Not everything in life is handed on a plate
When people think your words are true
It doesn't matter what you do
And you blindly go through life
Judging only but it's worth
Just try not to forget
It's not what it was before
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
These are my words
That I've never said before
I think I'm doing okay
And this is the smile
That I've never shown before
I'm so afraid of waking
And all of mistakes one life can take
They all finally start to go away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
But in some way, hope it fucks with you
That I'm okay and I've made it through
Locked deep inside, my place to hide
To hide from how you made me feel
I learned to live without a pride
Just a shell, with me stuck inside
Did he finally pull through like me?
Finding himself, not needing help