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It's been a long time since I have posted any kind of serious entry in here. That happened for 2 reasons. First, Tiffany became my livejournal, my place to dump all the random crap in my brain. Second, and the reason I am writing in here now, I got complacent.
Recently I have let myself slip away from the happy guy I had become back into a funk similar to before I met Tiffany. Needless to say that funk has thrown my whole life out of whack, and I need to get it back. I need to find out who I am again. And this time stay that way.
It's amazing how someone you were starting to take for granted leaving is the kind of revelation you need. the saying you don't know what you have until it's gone is very very true.
I don't want to be the person I have become the last few months, mainly because that person isn't really me. I've become so good at pushing my emotions down until I forget about them that I do it without thinking. And in doing so I hurt the one I love more than anything in the world.
It's time to stop. It's time to get myself together and make something of myself. It's time to live life without the safety net I have used my entire adult life. It's time to be the person Tiffany fell in love with nearly 3 years ago.
I can never express to her how sorry I am for hurting her, and how I pray that she can forgive me and allow me to make it better. She doesn't like the person I have become, and I don't blame her a bit.
It's time I showed her that the man she fell in love with is still here, and is back to stay.
It's not going to be easy, but I can do it, I won't give up until I do.
She will see, and when she does, she will want me with her as badly as I do.
I love you Tiffany
Recently I have let myself slip away from the happy guy I had become back into a funk similar to before I met Tiffany. Needless to say that funk has thrown my whole life out of whack, and I need to get it back. I need to find out who I am again. And this time stay that way.
It's amazing how someone you were starting to take for granted leaving is the kind of revelation you need. the saying you don't know what you have until it's gone is very very true.
I don't want to be the person I have become the last few months, mainly because that person isn't really me. I've become so good at pushing my emotions down until I forget about them that I do it without thinking. And in doing so I hurt the one I love more than anything in the world.
It's time to stop. It's time to get myself together and make something of myself. It's time to live life without the safety net I have used my entire adult life. It's time to be the person Tiffany fell in love with nearly 3 years ago.
I can never express to her how sorry I am for hurting her, and how I pray that she can forgive me and allow me to make it better. She doesn't like the person I have become, and I don't blame her a bit.
It's time I showed her that the man she fell in love with is still here, and is back to stay.
It's not going to be easy, but I can do it, I won't give up until I do.
She will see, and when she does, she will want me with her as badly as I do.
I love you Tiffany