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Okay, so, if anyone wants to contact me...please call my parents line....right now, when people call my line...they get another gurls phone...and her name is Amanda.....and yes she is a bitch..and yes, she will hang up in ur face......so...just wanted to let all those who wondered what the hell was wrong with my phone number....but, anywho...I am having my lil cousin visit me right now..and its goin okay....hmm....What else....hmm..I guess, I dun have anything else to say....except I am feeling bored quite often....and.....nothing seems fun to me....clubbing...that sounds like fun for about a min or two...hmm...hanging out with friends...which is all I seem to do..which is fine..but, damn...when I am hanging out with them...we get bored and wonder about things to do....and EVERYTHING else that u can do..cost money....*shrugs*..shyt, why is everything SOOO FAWKING BORING TO ME?!!!!!!! I dun know..maybe I need to have some MEE time.....Maybe I need to pick up a book and just do creative lil things....well, "constructive" things..but, then when I think about doing that..I think to myself...WHY?!!! ITS SUMMERTIME!!! WHY am I doing this?! But, I guess, maybe I need to do that...hmmm..what else.....Okay, yea..so offically I am trying this lesbianism shyt out...Both my parents consider me a LESBIAN now...and its quite wierd to even call myself one..I guess, I just hate having restrictions. Well, my convo about my sexuality has come up before with my mom..and her and I have had convos about it..but, my dad and I have never really discussed my sexuality....cause, WHY SHOULD I?!!!! Its really none of ANYONES business besides whoever I decide become involved with...but, anyways..on the weekened of pride, I was getting ready and he asked me where I was going and I said, to Pride..with Kenneth..and he said, GAY PRIDE? and I said, Yes...and he says..are u gay? and I said, yes, I am..and he said, okay, well, as long as u have some babies I am fine with it....he says, I dun care HOW GAY U R...u better have me some grandbabies...yea...so thats exactly how that went..I think my mother may have leaked some info to him..cause, he was entirely toooo calm about the situation...(which I am kinda happy she did..and I kinda expected her to do it sooner..lol)in addition to that she was asking me to tell him on the fathers day weekend but, I REFUSED to tell him that news on FATHERS DAY WEEKEND...so..she prolly did..which I am quite surprised that she didn't leak earlier..cause, she has known my inner thoughts, about my sexuality for quite sometime.....like years..so its good to know she can keep her mouth shut. But, reguardless of what I may call myself, I think I still have the right to do what the hell I want.....some may call me greedy...which I might have a streak of that..but, OOo well, I do what I want, when I want...and I think that should be my motto...My frame of mind..or maybe that Is my frame of mind...which I think I pretty much is..but, shyt, so is everyone elses..lalalalala what else is new?! Hmm....nothing much has been goin on with my life...I have been wondering just like Amarys..who my friends REALLY are....How many DO I REALLY HAVE?!When I think about who my friends are..I say...have they helped me in any type of situation..and if they have...what was it? and have they lied to me?! Have they treated me with respect?! Have they ever just acked tha monkey with me..have then been loyal to me?! DO THEY KEEP SECRETS?! These are some of the questions I ask myself when determining whether someone is my friend or not. I know everyone crosses the line from time to time..but, its all bout what u do..and HOW OFTEN U DO IT..if u are a repeated offender..lol...chances are u have been put over in the associate category..yes..u can go from a friend to an associate when u become a repeated offender...and yes, I know everyone does this type of evaluation on their so called "friends" ..I may just be sayin it...but, everyone does this inside...and if U DON'T do this?! THen u need to start..cause, u can def cut some of the dead unwanted weight off in ur life....but, yea..enough, of that..I think I will go and straighten some stuff up now...go somewhere maybe...but, yea...ciao:-D