When I was really young (like 7 years old) my mom told me that I could never love someone unless I loved myself first. 6 months ago I rebuilt my life and actually understood this.
For the most part of really, really knowing you, I didn't want to live. In combination with not ever really being together, but sharing our lives and more, it was the most confusing thing I've ever, and will ever deal with. We leaned on each other too often, and I treated you badly.
Do I wish I could have loved myself and had a regular real relationship with you? One hundred percent Yes, and more.
Did I feel the deepest connection with you? Yes.
I will always want to have a connection with you. I will always love you. And I will always regret that I didn't love myself when we still talked regularly.
You were never the one that had to prove that you were worth something. You are the most amazing woman I've ever known.
You are worth everything.
I was blind and terrified of giving all of myself to someone.
6 months ago I rebuilt my life and actually understood this.
For the most part of really, really knowing you, I didn't want to live.
In combination with not ever really being together, but sharing our lives and more,
it was the most confusing thing I've ever, and will ever deal with.
We leaned on each other too often, and I treated you badly.
Do I wish I could have loved myself and had a regular real relationship with you?
One hundred percent Yes, and more.
Did I feel the deepest connection with you? Yes.
I will always want to have a connection with you. I will always love you.
And I will always regret that I didn't love myself when we still talked regularly.
You were never the one that had to prove that you were worth something.
You are the most amazing woman I've ever known.
You are worth everything.
I was blind and terrified of giving all of myself to someone.
I don't have that anymore.
I hope one day things will better.
Have a good day, Rache.
I won't hurt you anymore.
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