nights like this
i forgot how great it was to be with them. a group of people who care passionately about something but aren't egotistical, always ready with a smile and story...i almost choked five times at joe mama's from laughter. it was wonderful to reminisce and amazing to see the documentary and know that we were all there. wyoming was incredible. and i'm so so glad i got to see most everyone again. and maybe we'll get together again...or at least keep in touch.
i needed this, complete relaxation without complete isolation. i need to stop ghosting. sometimes i have trouble though indulging all sides of my personality, and become a bit bipolar. child-like glee, idealistic fevor, intellectual gravity, personal attractions...sometimes it's hard to reconcile it all. and i suppose it's my own fault that i feel obliged to be so continually upbeat with people. usually i'm such a smiley person that people are disturbed when i'm depressed or angry. so i subvert it in public, probably too much. there are people in my life that deserve real answers. and i'm trying more to give them that. it's just hard sometimes to stop once i start...it's hard to find the energy to be deep when i need to be calm and composed
how did this turn into a depression entry?
i had a great night
i spent too much time this afternoon staring into the distance
i need to get a shower
i really enjoyed seeing emily hit keaton over the head with a rock, i'm glad it's forever immortalized in film and i'll soon get a copy
i needed this, complete relaxation without complete isolation. i need to stop ghosting. sometimes i have trouble though indulging all sides of my personality, and become a bit bipolar. child-like glee, idealistic fevor, intellectual gravity, personal attractions...sometimes it's hard to reconcile it all. and i suppose it's my own fault that i feel obliged to be so continually upbeat with people. usually i'm such a smiley person that people are disturbed when i'm depressed or angry. so i subvert it in public, probably too much. there are people in my life that deserve real answers. and i'm trying more to give them that. it's just hard sometimes to stop once i start...it's hard to find the energy to be deep when i need to be calm and composed
how did this turn into a depression entry?
i had a great night
i spent too much time this afternoon staring into the distance
i need to get a shower
i really enjoyed seeing emily hit keaton over the head with a rock, i'm glad it's forever immortalized in film and i'll soon get a copy