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[jadedstripes]

solitude used to be such an ugly word,
but now necessary replaces ugly
a strong feeling my independence is going to be lengthy.

obligation is no lines for love,
and false fronts are decieving
to a feeble mind.

hopefully stability will free you.

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[inaugurating]

it is already. i'm afraid though, that in the process of becoming stable, you are going to lose me. i can't say any amount of time, but to estrange myself from all feeling (romantically) and memory of us; things shared, times had, words spoken and emotions felt; i feel as if i will reach a point of no return. is this hurting me as much as it is you? if not, then i will leave you alone. but i feel as if i'm trying to grapple with this love i have for you. i'm holding on for dear life, and i can't seem to find your hand to pull me up to solid ground. i am myself, i don't need you. i'm sorry to say, i don't need you to be myself. i was under the impression that i did, but have realized through two days of meditating and self-searching that i am happy to be here, alone or otherwise. but know that when i see you, it's very bittersweet. i want you to say you are in love with me or not and mean it, because if what you are saying is true (the former), then you are not someone who i would want to be with anyways, or aren't anymore. becuase love is self-less. love isn't obligatory, it embodies you and makes you obligated to nothing other than your own heart. i really do believe that, like the band of horses song goes, no one's going to love you like i do. i feel like a sucker for it, but i haven't known anyone to love with as much passion as i do, and i think that deep down you know this, because they're too smart to do that. they've learned from experiences like these. lksdfhlsadd