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So, my birthday was lovely. On Sunday Elaine and Casey had a birthday/memorial bbq type thing for me. Morgan, Marcus, Rei, Angelo and my dad joined in on the party. I wouldn't have wanted to spend it any other way. Chasing Rei around the house, laughing so hard my lungs hurt later, seeing my little glow worm Morgan and her ever expanding belly. I got awesome presents, all being baking related. haha.
After I dropped Sarah's car off at her house (thanks again, my love!) I met with Erin at her apartment. We talked for awhile and went to have a drink at lush. Being that it was a Sunday night, the place was dead. My neighbors Aaron and Tasha were there and I kind of melted into their group of friends for awhile while they bought me a drink. It was overwhelming in some ways, I had these strangers asking me all sorts of questions about baking. I wasn't even close to being tipsy but the rapid fire of "how did you make that frosting? What was that garnish on the top? Can you teach me how to bake?" made me feel close to crying. Granted, it had absolutely nothing to do with the questions themselves or with the people or situation. I was just feeling stuck and... distanced.
After that, I went home.
My actual birthday, Monday wasn't horribly exciting. I spent it alone for the most part. I went and had coffee (thanks to Sara-tops for my birthday coffee!) and roamed around Record Exchange for awhile. I bought the most recent Camera Obscura album, it's really really good. The RecEx owner likes me for some reason and after overhearing me on my phone thanking my sister for my happy birthday call, gave me a deal on the cd which was more than nice. I still wish I knew his name.. he knows mine. I feel like too much of a jerk to ask, so instead I just make it a point to never need to say his name, haha. After that, Angelo came to pick me up. We went to his parents house for a dinner of MEAT! haha. Wow. They are hardcore about their protein intake, lemme tell ya. Ribs, steak, more ribs, corn on the cob, my AWESOME BIRTHDAY CUPCAKE! It was amazing. Angleo and I have been eying this pan for months now.. a two sided pan that makes a huge cupcake after assembled. Each half of the pan requires an entire cake mix to fill. It was. Amazing. No other words can describe the awesomeness of this pan. It was my birthday present from Angelo ( thanks, baby!) so we made our first cake with it at his parents house. Followed by his adorable grandparents and parents singing me happy birthday, my candle was a huge long dinner candle. It was so so so nice of all of them. It's so refreshing that they treat me so much like family. I adore my family, with everything... but I don't see them a ton. Going to his parents house and having his parents, grandparents and sister just attack me with hugs and refer to me as their daughter, sister, just warms me. I'm lucky. After dinner and cake, Angelo took me home and I tried to wind down before having to work on tuesday.
I arrived at work to see that Sarah was not there. (YAY!) Talked to Jenny, apprently on Sunday, she stopped being able to breath and had to have an ambulance come to pick her up to take her to the hospital. She's been out of work all week and while I am truly worried about her, (even though i have zero reason to be) my work week has been spectacular. It's been FUN! I forgot that was possible. Busy, yes. Lots of catering on top of all my other duties, yes.. but I've laughed. Which isn't always typical in that place. I've been working with Jenny all week and the hours are much longer but she's just... fun to work with. She kicks ass actually.She also gave me a $75 dollar certificate for amazon.com.. and what did THIS girl do? Yeah. Stocked up on even more books... I'm currently waiting for 15 new books coming my way. *YAY!*
The downside is that the present my mom sent me for my birthday, got lost somehow. It was from Sweden when she was there last month. I'm sooo sad and she feels awful. says she's going to send me a backup plan swedish gift, which I told her if it was meant for me but out of guilt sentit my day, I'd be MORE than mad about it.
I love love love my mom. She's the best ever. I miss her so much at times it hurts. The five days I spent with her was amazing and when she jokinly said they;d make their basement to an apartment I really strongly consiered. I feel dfferent with her.. Never sad. I never get those weird bouts of crying overnothing with her.. I just.... love love love my mom. Given the chance, I'd see her daily. It took awhile to get used to it after she'd moved to denver and we longer had our townhouse which saddned me deeply. We bonded more in that house in those two years telling me she was moving almost didn't seem real. Made parts of my world fall apart. Then I saw how happy she is with Tim, how he completes me and loved me, doesn't just see me as baggage or an annoying offspring.
I just miss her. A lot.
Today at work Catherine, Jim, Eric and Alex sent me flowers at work. So so so beautiful, all the customers in line did a sudden "AWWW!" as they were waiting in line.
More to date- Tring to avoid the sad stuffto post abot, that cam come later.As of now right, good is a word to use on, though I do have some emo type ramblings that i won;t being the mood by posting it.
I love you!
sleeping pills kicking in.. will elaborate when my mind has the abilty to type more than one word a minute
All in all, thanks friends. You're my life.
After I dropped Sarah's car off at her house (thanks again, my love!) I met with Erin at her apartment. We talked for awhile and went to have a drink at lush. Being that it was a Sunday night, the place was dead. My neighbors Aaron and Tasha were there and I kind of melted into their group of friends for awhile while they bought me a drink. It was overwhelming in some ways, I had these strangers asking me all sorts of questions about baking. I wasn't even close to being tipsy but the rapid fire of "how did you make that frosting? What was that garnish on the top? Can you teach me how to bake?" made me feel close to crying. Granted, it had absolutely nothing to do with the questions themselves or with the people or situation. I was just feeling stuck and... distanced.
After that, I went home.
My actual birthday, Monday wasn't horribly exciting. I spent it alone for the most part. I went and had coffee (thanks to Sara-tops for my birthday coffee!) and roamed around Record Exchange for awhile. I bought the most recent Camera Obscura album, it's really really good. The RecEx owner likes me for some reason and after overhearing me on my phone thanking my sister for my happy birthday call, gave me a deal on the cd which was more than nice. I still wish I knew his name.. he knows mine. I feel like too much of a jerk to ask, so instead I just make it a point to never need to say his name, haha. After that, Angelo came to pick me up. We went to his parents house for a dinner of MEAT! haha. Wow. They are hardcore about their protein intake, lemme tell ya. Ribs, steak, more ribs, corn on the cob, my AWESOME BIRTHDAY CUPCAKE! It was amazing. Angleo and I have been eying this pan for months now.. a two sided pan that makes a huge cupcake after assembled. Each half of the pan requires an entire cake mix to fill. It was. Amazing. No other words can describe the awesomeness of this pan. It was my birthday present from Angelo ( thanks, baby!) so we made our first cake with it at his parents house. Followed by his adorable grandparents and parents singing me happy birthday, my candle was a huge long dinner candle. It was so so so nice of all of them. It's so refreshing that they treat me so much like family. I adore my family, with everything... but I don't see them a ton. Going to his parents house and having his parents, grandparents and sister just attack me with hugs and refer to me as their daughter, sister, just warms me. I'm lucky. After dinner and cake, Angelo took me home and I tried to wind down before having to work on tuesday.
I arrived at work to see that Sarah was not there. (YAY!) Talked to Jenny, apprently on Sunday, she stopped being able to breath and had to have an ambulance come to pick her up to take her to the hospital. She's been out of work all week and while I am truly worried about her, (even though i have zero reason to be) my work week has been spectacular. It's been FUN! I forgot that was possible. Busy, yes. Lots of catering on top of all my other duties, yes.. but I've laughed. Which isn't always typical in that place. I've been working with Jenny all week and the hours are much longer but she's just... fun to work with. She kicks ass actually.She also gave me a $75 dollar certificate for amazon.com.. and what did THIS girl do? Yeah. Stocked up on even more books... I'm currently waiting for 15 new books coming my way. *YAY!*
The downside is that the present my mom sent me for my birthday, got lost somehow. It was from Sweden when she was there last month. I'm sooo sad and she feels awful. says she's going to send me a backup plan swedish gift, which I told her if it was meant for me but out of guilt sentit my day, I'd be MORE than mad about it.
I love love love my mom. She's the best ever. I miss her so much at times it hurts. The five days I spent with her was amazing and when she jokinly said they;d make their basement to an apartment I really strongly consiered. I feel dfferent with her.. Never sad. I never get those weird bouts of crying overnothing with her.. I just.... love love love my mom. Given the chance, I'd see her daily. It took awhile to get used to it after she'd moved to denver and we longer had our townhouse which saddned me deeply. We bonded more in that house in those two years telling me she was moving almost didn't seem real. Made parts of my world fall apart. Then I saw how happy she is with Tim, how he completes me and loved me, doesn't just see me as baggage or an annoying offspring.
I just miss her. A lot.
Today at work Catherine, Jim, Eric and Alex sent me flowers at work. So so so beautiful, all the customers in line did a sudden "AWWW!" as they were waiting in line.
More to date- Tring to avoid the sad stuffto post abot, that cam come later.As of now right, good is a word to use on, though I do have some emo type ramblings that i won;t being the mood by posting it.
I love you!
sleeping pills kicking in.. will elaborate when my mind has the abilty to type more than one word a minute
All in all, thanks friends. You're my life.