pissed off
I know I promised Todd I wouldn't write about our personal lives on line, but I have no else to talk to... I'm just generally pissed off.
Dont get me wrong he is the love of my life, but some days I'm not sure that I'm enough.
Todd , has a huge problem with drinking.. not that he's abusive or anything-- he just likes to drink- alot.
No matter what the problem is he needs to drink, and I'm really getting tired of it. I found to bottles of that shit hidden in the couch, I had to go with out eating tonight as work, because I'm broke, but that's okay he got his liquor.
I am really getting tired of all this... you keep wanting to believe that everything is going to change-- but you know every time they are going to quit its another lie you can't bear to hear..
I just dont know what to do anymore, how many more times will I hear this lie before I give up??
I am so tired of crying myself to sleep, Iam tired of the arguing...
I'm only recently knoticed that the only time Todd ever wants to have sex is when he is drunk-... how good does that make me fell? I am I really that bad of a lover?
iam so full of dought for myself-- i really wish i know what to do..
Dont get me wrong he is the love of my life, but some days I'm not sure that I'm enough.
Todd , has a huge problem with drinking.. not that he's abusive or anything-- he just likes to drink- alot.
No matter what the problem is he needs to drink, and I'm really getting tired of it. I found to bottles of that shit hidden in the couch, I had to go with out eating tonight as work, because I'm broke, but that's okay he got his liquor.
I am really getting tired of all this... you keep wanting to believe that everything is going to change-- but you know every time they are going to quit its another lie you can't bear to hear..
I just dont know what to do anymore, how many more times will I hear this lie before I give up??
I am so tired of crying myself to sleep, Iam tired of the arguing...
I'm only recently knoticed that the only time Todd ever wants to have sex is when he is drunk-... how good does that make me fell? I am I really that bad of a lover?
iam so full of dought for myself-- i really wish i know what to do..