Mar 13, 2009 14:08
I have decided to start a journal of my addiction to loratab and xanex. This will be the first time that I have admitted this to anyone, even myself. My daily intake of loratab is staggering. Since I was 12 yrs old, I have been an addict. it went from street dope to drinking and now rx drugs. I have not had a drink in 3 yrs or used street drugs for forever. When I stopped drinking I sought help for depression and anxiety. My doctor put me on zannies, 3 1 mg tabs a day, which I of course abuse. Next came a serious back injury.
That doctor put me on 3 7.5/500 tabs of loratab a day. I take about 12 or more a day. I live in fear of running out of pills, yet take them compulsivily. Just cant controll it. I have no insurance, am broke and live in a getto town with no resources for the poor, To be honest,
I do not know if I can quit with the best of help. This was very hard to write. Enough for now.