Fumbling Toward (or in this case away from) Extacy
So its been a little while since I last wrote anything in here. I had today off so I went fishing with the family and went grocery shopping and watched a movie. It was chill and I had a surprisingly relaxing day off. My brother was here from Illinois last week and it was a short visit on my part because i worked so goddamn much while he was here. Luckily, my last day at Shitty Market is Saturday. I'm so happy!
I've kinda got something going on with Jose now. He's a total sweetie but its weird because he's become so much like a brother since last summer when I started dating Dave. We've kissed and such, but it's strange. I don't know if there's a future with that one. And no, we haven't screwed yet. I've also met another guy but I'll give details on that when I kinda have an idea about what I want.
As most of you probably know, Dave and I were talking about getting back together for a while and after Mike and I broke up, that intensified. We didn't talk for about a week and he'd usually call after he'd get off work or something, so I called him thursday morning and he pulled his same old song and dance routine. "I don't know if it's worth making things work anymore because I don't think we're as close as we used to be." I actually thought for once he was sure of what he wanted, but I was once again wrong. I guess I should have listened when Matt told me to give up. Dave has a lot of shit he needs to get together, and i'm not gonna fuck myself up over him until he's sure of what he wants from me.
I haven't talked to many people lately, besides ally, jose and casey. It's kind of like a self induced isolation because ive been so fuckin busy. Oh well, hopefully after summer everybody will have time to do stuff once again... or maybe not. Either way, i guess its all good. I'd just kind of like to get a, "hey are you still alive" phone call every once and a while because its so easy to lose grip with everybody these days. I guess part of that's my fault for never picking up the phone myself.
Okay, well I'm done writing for now. I love you guys a ton. I'll try to write soon.
~Lis
I've kinda got something going on with Jose now. He's a total sweetie but its weird because he's become so much like a brother since last summer when I started dating Dave. We've kissed and such, but it's strange. I don't know if there's a future with that one. And no, we haven't screwed yet. I've also met another guy but I'll give details on that when I kinda have an idea about what I want.
As most of you probably know, Dave and I were talking about getting back together for a while and after Mike and I broke up, that intensified. We didn't talk for about a week and he'd usually call after he'd get off work or something, so I called him thursday morning and he pulled his same old song and dance routine. "I don't know if it's worth making things work anymore because I don't think we're as close as we used to be." I actually thought for once he was sure of what he wanted, but I was once again wrong. I guess I should have listened when Matt told me to give up. Dave has a lot of shit he needs to get together, and i'm not gonna fuck myself up over him until he's sure of what he wants from me.
I haven't talked to many people lately, besides ally, jose and casey. It's kind of like a self induced isolation because ive been so fuckin busy. Oh well, hopefully after summer everybody will have time to do stuff once again... or maybe not. Either way, i guess its all good. I'd just kind of like to get a, "hey are you still alive" phone call every once and a while because its so easy to lose grip with everybody these days. I guess part of that's my fault for never picking up the phone myself.
Okay, well I'm done writing for now. I love you guys a ton. I'll try to write soon.
~Lis