"Lately the weather has been so bipolar and consequently so have I"
Wow! This is a long time for me to go without updating my LJ. I've been working my ass off lately. My typical shift at City Market is 2-11, which kinda blows, but what can you do? I need the money badly. So let's see what's been up lately...
Mike came home this week! I went to Junction and only got to see him for about an hour. I kinda pulled into bitch mode on him earlier, so I feel shitty for that.
So here's the thing though: I guess I just want to feel like I'm special. I know myself and I don't delve into relationships that quickly, it's not my style... so when I get pissed about lack of attention it's not that I'm trying to make things super serious, I just want to feel like to the guy I'm with (in this case, Mike) that I'm the greatest girl in the world to them, and when I don't get that feeling, it pisses me off because I'm not used to complacency. Again, another poinless piece of information. What I'm trying to get at is that I don't want something casual, nor do I want
a sort of serious possession. I just want a relationship that has some meaning. Ok, I don't know why I brought that up, just needed to be understood I guess.
I leave for Chicago on Sunday! That'll be an awesome trip. I'm stoked for that. It's gonna be a load of fun, and on top of that, I DON'T HAVE TO WORK FOR A WEEK!!! My sister is moving to Denver soon, and that's gonna suck because I love her and the kids sooo much.
I've been kinda bummed lately. Just the usual, fucked up, all kinds of things going on that I don't understand and have no control over type of stuff. My sister spilled her guts to my mom about me being on birth control. Thank god she doesn't know I'm not a virgin. At least THAT'S still secretive. Errr... I'm hopin to go to Junction Saturday or something to see Mike before I leave but I dunno if he'll be able to hang. Hopefully, but if not, oh well. Well, now I'm blabbing on aimlessly, so I'll talk to you all soon. Love ya much, I'll update either right before I leave, or when I get back. Have fun without me!
Lis
Mike came home this week! I went to Junction and only got to see him for about an hour. I kinda pulled into bitch mode on him earlier, so I feel shitty for that.
So here's the thing though: I guess I just want to feel like I'm special. I know myself and I don't delve into relationships that quickly, it's not my style... so when I get pissed about lack of attention it's not that I'm trying to make things super serious, I just want to feel like to the guy I'm with (in this case, Mike) that I'm the greatest girl in the world to them, and when I don't get that feeling, it pisses me off because I'm not used to complacency. Again, another poinless piece of information. What I'm trying to get at is that I don't want something casual, nor do I want
a sort of serious possession. I just want a relationship that has some meaning. Ok, I don't know why I brought that up, just needed to be understood I guess.
I leave for Chicago on Sunday! That'll be an awesome trip. I'm stoked for that. It's gonna be a load of fun, and on top of that, I DON'T HAVE TO WORK FOR A WEEK!!! My sister is moving to Denver soon, and that's gonna suck because I love her and the kids sooo much.
I've been kinda bummed lately. Just the usual, fucked up, all kinds of things going on that I don't understand and have no control over type of stuff. My sister spilled her guts to my mom about me being on birth control. Thank god she doesn't know I'm not a virgin. At least THAT'S still secretive. Errr... I'm hopin to go to Junction Saturday or something to see Mike before I leave but I dunno if he'll be able to hang. Hopefully, but if not, oh well. Well, now I'm blabbing on aimlessly, so I'll talk to you all soon. Love ya much, I'll update either right before I leave, or when I get back. Have fun without me!
Lis