WE.VE GOT A LONG WAY TO GO
WE'VE GOT A LONG WAY TO GO
WHEN SHOW HITS THE ASPHALT
COLD LOOKS AND BAD TALK COME
WE'VE GOT A LONG WAY TO GO
ITS BEYOND MARTIN LUTHER
UPGRADE COMPUTER
I DONT KNOW WHY I AM WRITING IN THIS JOURNAL AND NOT IN LIVEJOURNAL, I JUST FELT THE NEED FOR THE CHANGE. TRIP WITH MY FAMILY IS ALMOST OVER, AND SO WITH THAT I HAVE 2 WEEKS TO PACK UP MY WHOLE LIFE BEFORE I LEAVE. I GUESS ITS TIME FOR ME TO MOVE ON. SO I JUST DECIDED TO COPY AND PASTE THIS TO LIVEJOURNAL, SO IT WILL BE IN BOTH JOURNALS. IT WAS GREAT TO SEE EVERYONE AGAIN. ITS GREAT TO KNOW I HAVE THAT FAMILY BASE THERE WITH ME AND ALL OF THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OF THE GREATEST FAMILY IN THE WORLD.
SO MY FRIEND IS OFF DOING HIS THING AND HE FINALLY HAD SEX FOR THE FIRST TIME... BEFORE ME!!!! GOOD FOR HIM THOUGH, HE IS DOING IT WITH SOMEONE WHO HE TRULY CARES ABOUT, AND THAT IS ALL ANYONE COULD ASK FOR. IM PROUD OF HIM. I KNOW THE FIRST TIME I HAVE SEX I WANT TO DO IT WITH SOMEONE I LOVE AND TRULY CARE ABOUT. DISREGUARDING HER PRIOR SEX HISTORY WHETHER THERE IS A FULL LIST OF GENTLEMEN OR NOT, IM NOT HERE TO JUDGE ANYBODY, BUT CAUSAL SEX IS NOT FOR ME. I GUESS THATS ONE PART OF MY RELIGION I HOLD TRUE. NOT THE WHOLE NO SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE THING, CAUSE WHO IS TO SAY YOU NEED SOME PRIEST TO ORDAIN THAT YOU ARE MARRIED (I HOPE I AM SPELLING RIGHT) WHEN IN YOU HEART YOU KNOW TAT YOU TRULY LOVE SOMEONE. ANYWAYS, OFF OF MY SOAPBOX..
SO ITS ALMOST TIME FOR ME TO SAY GOODBYE TO LINDSEY, IM NOT SURE HOWI FEEL ABOUT THAT. ON ONE HAND I NEED TO MOVE ON WITH MY CAREER PLANS, BUT ON THE OTHER HAND I WILL MISS HER SO MUCH. I WILL MISS OUR ENDLESS MINDGAMES, MOST OF THEM PLAYED BY HER ON NIGHTS WHEN I AM DRUNK AND CANT HEAR WHAT SHE IS SAYING. I WILL MISS OUR LITTLE FIGHTS WHICH LEFT US NOT TALKING FOR A FEW DAYS AND ME GIVING UP AND APOLOGIZING. BUT TO GRANT ME ONE VICTORY THE APRIL 19TH INCIDENT SHE ADMITTED SHE WAS WRONG.
BEFORE I LEAVE LINDSEY IS GOING TO GIVE EM A SUPRISE, AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS. I KNOW WHAT I WANT IT TO BE, BUT I AM ALMOST SURE IT WONT BE THAT, AND EVEN IF IT IS THAT, I IGHT REGRET IT LATER, CAUSE ITS HAPPENED BEFORE, AND NOW I DONT TALK TO HER ANYMORE.
WOW IF LINDSEY WERE TO KISS ME BEFORE I LEAVE AND THEN I COME BACK FOR HER PROM AND THEN WE NEVER TALKED AGAIN, I THINK I WOULD CRY BECAUSE I HAVE THE WORST LUCK EVER. HELL BUT EVEN IF LINDSEY AND I WERE TO KISS BEFORE I LEAVE THAT WOULDNT HAPPEN, CAUSE LINDSEY ISNT A MONUMENTAL BITCH!!!
ALSO I AM SICK OF MY FAMILY AND EVERYONE ELSE I KNOW COMMENTING ON MY BEAUTIFUL PROM DATE WHEN I HAVE NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT.
YES - I SPENT HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS ON PROM
YES - I ASKED FOR MONEY TO FLY HER DOWN HERE
YES - SHE KISSED ME ON VALENTINE'S DAY
YES - SHE KISSED MY BEST FRIEND
NO - SHE ISNT MY GIRLFRIEND
NO - WE DONT TALK (AS A MATTER OF FACT I CALLED FOR CHRISTMAS OUT OF COURTESY, OF COURSE NO REPSONSE)
NO - SHE DOESN'T SEEM TO WANT TO TO TALK TO ME
YES - WAISTED MY TIME
YES - I HAVE NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT!!!
SO STOP ASKING!!!!!!!
NOW THAT THAT'S OUT, I THINK I JUST HAVE NO LUCK WITH WOMEN. NOT AT ALL. NOT TIFFANY CHOHFI, NOT PAMIE ROMANO, NOT AMBER NEHME, NOT SHAWNDALYN MURPHY, NOT JADE JARVIS, NOBODY.
I THINK EVERYTIME JADE IS MENTIONED I FEEL WORSE.
IT DOESNT MATTER THOUGH, CAUSE GOOD IS LOOKING OUT FOR ME, AND AS MUCH AS I HATE PEOPLE WHO PITY ME TELLING ME YOU'LL FIND SOMEONE SOMEDAY (YEAH! LIKE WHEN IM IN A GRAVE AND A LONELY RAT COMES TO CLAIM MY BODY) I KNOW IN MY HEART SOMEONE WILL LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE THEM AND MAYBE THEIR PARENTS MAY ACTUALLY LIKE ME TOO.
I GUESS I NEED TO PACK MY FREAKIN CLOTHES AND STUFF AND GET READY FOR CHURCH, SO I WILL COMMENT LATER MY LOVELY FRIENDS.
(WHO THE FUCK IS EVEN READING THIS?)
PEACE.
DVW
WHEN SHOW HITS THE ASPHALT
COLD LOOKS AND BAD TALK COME
WE'VE GOT A LONG WAY TO GO
ITS BEYOND MARTIN LUTHER
UPGRADE COMPUTER
I DONT KNOW WHY I AM WRITING IN THIS JOURNAL AND NOT IN LIVEJOURNAL, I JUST FELT THE NEED FOR THE CHANGE. TRIP WITH MY FAMILY IS ALMOST OVER, AND SO WITH THAT I HAVE 2 WEEKS TO PACK UP MY WHOLE LIFE BEFORE I LEAVE. I GUESS ITS TIME FOR ME TO MOVE ON. SO I JUST DECIDED TO COPY AND PASTE THIS TO LIVEJOURNAL, SO IT WILL BE IN BOTH JOURNALS. IT WAS GREAT TO SEE EVERYONE AGAIN. ITS GREAT TO KNOW I HAVE THAT FAMILY BASE THERE WITH ME AND ALL OF THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OF THE GREATEST FAMILY IN THE WORLD.
SO MY FRIEND IS OFF DOING HIS THING AND HE FINALLY HAD SEX FOR THE FIRST TIME... BEFORE ME!!!! GOOD FOR HIM THOUGH, HE IS DOING IT WITH SOMEONE WHO HE TRULY CARES ABOUT, AND THAT IS ALL ANYONE COULD ASK FOR. IM PROUD OF HIM. I KNOW THE FIRST TIME I HAVE SEX I WANT TO DO IT WITH SOMEONE I LOVE AND TRULY CARE ABOUT. DISREGUARDING HER PRIOR SEX HISTORY WHETHER THERE IS A FULL LIST OF GENTLEMEN OR NOT, IM NOT HERE TO JUDGE ANYBODY, BUT CAUSAL SEX IS NOT FOR ME. I GUESS THATS ONE PART OF MY RELIGION I HOLD TRUE. NOT THE WHOLE NO SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE THING, CAUSE WHO IS TO SAY YOU NEED SOME PRIEST TO ORDAIN THAT YOU ARE MARRIED (I HOPE I AM SPELLING RIGHT) WHEN IN YOU HEART YOU KNOW TAT YOU TRULY LOVE SOMEONE. ANYWAYS, OFF OF MY SOAPBOX..
SO ITS ALMOST TIME FOR ME TO SAY GOODBYE TO LINDSEY, IM NOT SURE HOWI FEEL ABOUT THAT. ON ONE HAND I NEED TO MOVE ON WITH MY CAREER PLANS, BUT ON THE OTHER HAND I WILL MISS HER SO MUCH. I WILL MISS OUR ENDLESS MINDGAMES, MOST OF THEM PLAYED BY HER ON NIGHTS WHEN I AM DRUNK AND CANT HEAR WHAT SHE IS SAYING. I WILL MISS OUR LITTLE FIGHTS WHICH LEFT US NOT TALKING FOR A FEW DAYS AND ME GIVING UP AND APOLOGIZING. BUT TO GRANT ME ONE VICTORY THE APRIL 19TH INCIDENT SHE ADMITTED SHE WAS WRONG.
BEFORE I LEAVE LINDSEY IS GOING TO GIVE EM A SUPRISE, AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS. I KNOW WHAT I WANT IT TO BE, BUT I AM ALMOST SURE IT WONT BE THAT, AND EVEN IF IT IS THAT, I IGHT REGRET IT LATER, CAUSE ITS HAPPENED BEFORE, AND NOW I DONT TALK TO HER ANYMORE.
WOW IF LINDSEY WERE TO KISS ME BEFORE I LEAVE AND THEN I COME BACK FOR HER PROM AND THEN WE NEVER TALKED AGAIN, I THINK I WOULD CRY BECAUSE I HAVE THE WORST LUCK EVER. HELL BUT EVEN IF LINDSEY AND I WERE TO KISS BEFORE I LEAVE THAT WOULDNT HAPPEN, CAUSE LINDSEY ISNT A MONUMENTAL BITCH!!!
ALSO I AM SICK OF MY FAMILY AND EVERYONE ELSE I KNOW COMMENTING ON MY BEAUTIFUL PROM DATE WHEN I HAVE NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT.
YES - I SPENT HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS ON PROM
YES - I ASKED FOR MONEY TO FLY HER DOWN HERE
YES - SHE KISSED ME ON VALENTINE'S DAY
YES - SHE KISSED MY BEST FRIEND
NO - SHE ISNT MY GIRLFRIEND
NO - WE DONT TALK (AS A MATTER OF FACT I CALLED FOR CHRISTMAS OUT OF COURTESY, OF COURSE NO REPSONSE)
NO - SHE DOESN'T SEEM TO WANT TO TO TALK TO ME
YES - WAISTED MY TIME
YES - I HAVE NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT!!!
SO STOP ASKING!!!!!!!
NOW THAT THAT'S OUT, I THINK I JUST HAVE NO LUCK WITH WOMEN. NOT AT ALL. NOT TIFFANY CHOHFI, NOT PAMIE ROMANO, NOT AMBER NEHME, NOT SHAWNDALYN MURPHY, NOT JADE JARVIS, NOBODY.
I THINK EVERYTIME JADE IS MENTIONED I FEEL WORSE.
IT DOESNT MATTER THOUGH, CAUSE GOOD IS LOOKING OUT FOR ME, AND AS MUCH AS I HATE PEOPLE WHO PITY ME TELLING ME YOU'LL FIND SOMEONE SOMEDAY (YEAH! LIKE WHEN IM IN A GRAVE AND A LONELY RAT COMES TO CLAIM MY BODY) I KNOW IN MY HEART SOMEONE WILL LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE THEM AND MAYBE THEIR PARENTS MAY ACTUALLY LIKE ME TOO.
I GUESS I NEED TO PACK MY FREAKIN CLOTHES AND STUFF AND GET READY FOR CHURCH, SO I WILL COMMENT LATER MY LOVELY FRIENDS.
(WHO THE FUCK IS EVEN READING THIS?)
PEACE.
DVW