Definition: Emo
You know,
I thought things could be better than they are. After all.
- I got a new job that I love
- I got awesome friends, that seem to understand me
- I am toughening up,
- I am looking weight
but deep down, I am feeling a bit emo.
All around me, on this happy morn. everyone is with their loved ones. I am with my own loved ones aswell, but there is this deep lonliness that has settled into my heart.
I have grown feeling sfor someone, but he is plagued by a woman in his past, recent past.
It reminds me of the pain I sometimes still have when i think of when I had Steven. and how much it hurt me to just let go and try to move on. There is still this pain there, of what could have been and what i could of done different, then i think: Hey, I am much better off now. But am i really?
Mind you, I am not pinning over him, at least, not as I was. I miss that connection that has attracted us to each other, that he didn't care what i looked at, just took me as I am. sometimes those are jsut not enough for a relationship. and now i have to help this guy out with his own feelings, all the while trying to tell my heart not to fall for him just yet because heart break is a tough sore with no anti-venom to cure it with.
I have had a lot of hit and misses between the years of my teen years and my early adult years. and i know there will be more. but while i am feeling emo-ish, I am ready to cry. (no /wrist going on. that's retarded)
Perhaps i should go spoil myself tomorrow and let myself just... chill.
Happy holidays you guys.
I hope you guys got what you wanted and enjoyed spending time with your families.
Happy new year
I thought things could be better than they are. After all.
- I got a new job that I love
- I got awesome friends, that seem to understand me
- I am toughening up,
- I am looking weight
but deep down, I am feeling a bit emo.
All around me, on this happy morn. everyone is with their loved ones. I am with my own loved ones aswell, but there is this deep lonliness that has settled into my heart.
I have grown feeling sfor someone, but he is plagued by a woman in his past, recent past.
It reminds me of the pain I sometimes still have when i think of when I had Steven. and how much it hurt me to just let go and try to move on. There is still this pain there, of what could have been and what i could of done different, then i think: Hey, I am much better off now. But am i really?
Mind you, I am not pinning over him, at least, not as I was. I miss that connection that has attracted us to each other, that he didn't care what i looked at, just took me as I am. sometimes those are jsut not enough for a relationship. and now i have to help this guy out with his own feelings, all the while trying to tell my heart not to fall for him just yet because heart break is a tough sore with no anti-venom to cure it with.
I have had a lot of hit and misses between the years of my teen years and my early adult years. and i know there will be more. but while i am feeling emo-ish, I am ready to cry. (no /wrist going on. that's retarded)
Perhaps i should go spoil myself tomorrow and let myself just... chill.
Happy holidays you guys.
I hope you guys got what you wanted and enjoyed spending time with your families.
Happy new year