this is the way it's supposed to be...
It's been awhile since I've updated. Haven't really been too busy lately but I guess I've been busy enough to not be at my computer all the time.
So far summer is going well minus the working part, but even with that it's still not too bad. A lot of chill time which is definitely well needed and well deserved. Heh, it's kinda weird to think that I drank more during the school year than I have during the summer. I guess that's what having to wake up everyday at 6:52 does to ya. Like I said before though, it's really not too bad.
Started hardcore working out a few weeks ago. If you know me at all, you'd know that I have this huge complex about going to the gym. Just something about being so little and seeing this huge guys lift weights A. intimidates the hell out of me and 2. frustrates me because as much as I try, I can only define the body mass that I have instead of beefing up and actually getting bigger. Whatever though. I love going to the gym now. Last week, I had some of the most amazing workouts of my life. I feel so good afterwards and I love that. It's getting to the point now where even though the actual lifting of weights is hard, I don't really feel too sore afterwards. And I'm already beginning to increase weights on certain things so that's a definite plus. Plus, I was starting to get way out of shape and I needed to do something about it.
What else?? Been laying out / tanning lately. I don't know what it is about tanned skin but it's so sexy to me. My logic is, if I feel that way about girls, they must feel the same way about guys so why not get tan :)
Also, been watching movies and playing sand volleyball like crazy. This is what summer is all about...hanging out w/ friends, having a good time, and being able to remember it the next day ;).
Lindsey and Lyss came down this weekend. It was a lot of fun. It was lyss's first time at Ball State so I had to show her how we do here in Muncie and she loved it. Saturday we went out to Puerta and started the night off with a few margaritas apiece then came back to the homestead and of course played some games. Later in the night, we ended up going to Katelyn's and hanging out and seeing everyone and even though Lindsey and Lyss were lightweights and had to come home early ;) fun was had by all. Sunday, Me, Linds, Lyss, and Hart started drinking at 6 cause everyone else was at the race and by the end of the night I was naked in the kitched playing Kings because I got dared to, running around in the rain in my boxers, and passing out / making the strangest noises possible with my nose ;) sorry Linds. I ended up being way drunker than everyone else because of a new rule we incorporated into this game squares which involved me drinking for almost 20 minutes straight....ah well, at least I didn't throw up :).
On a completely different note, I'm getting better on dealing w/ my insane thought process. I don't know how many times I've written in here complaining about how I overanalyze every situation, and although it's completely true, it's something I'm working on. I gotta stop trying to do things because I think that's what everyone else wants or because that's what will make everyone else happy. I gotta start doing shit for me. And I have been lately and I'm starting to feel better about things. Also, I gotta stop taking everything personal. I'm working on it....with time everything will be better.
So far summer is going well minus the working part, but even with that it's still not too bad. A lot of chill time which is definitely well needed and well deserved. Heh, it's kinda weird to think that I drank more during the school year than I have during the summer. I guess that's what having to wake up everyday at 6:52 does to ya. Like I said before though, it's really not too bad.
Started hardcore working out a few weeks ago. If you know me at all, you'd know that I have this huge complex about going to the gym. Just something about being so little and seeing this huge guys lift weights A. intimidates the hell out of me and 2. frustrates me because as much as I try, I can only define the body mass that I have instead of beefing up and actually getting bigger. Whatever though. I love going to the gym now. Last week, I had some of the most amazing workouts of my life. I feel so good afterwards and I love that. It's getting to the point now where even though the actual lifting of weights is hard, I don't really feel too sore afterwards. And I'm already beginning to increase weights on certain things so that's a definite plus. Plus, I was starting to get way out of shape and I needed to do something about it.
What else?? Been laying out / tanning lately. I don't know what it is about tanned skin but it's so sexy to me. My logic is, if I feel that way about girls, they must feel the same way about guys so why not get tan :)
Also, been watching movies and playing sand volleyball like crazy. This is what summer is all about...hanging out w/ friends, having a good time, and being able to remember it the next day ;).
Lindsey and Lyss came down this weekend. It was a lot of fun. It was lyss's first time at Ball State so I had to show her how we do here in Muncie and she loved it. Saturday we went out to Puerta and started the night off with a few margaritas apiece then came back to the homestead and of course played some games. Later in the night, we ended up going to Katelyn's and hanging out and seeing everyone and even though Lindsey and Lyss were lightweights and had to come home early ;) fun was had by all. Sunday, Me, Linds, Lyss, and Hart started drinking at 6 cause everyone else was at the race and by the end of the night I was naked in the kitched playing Kings because I got dared to, running around in the rain in my boxers, and passing out / making the strangest noises possible with my nose ;) sorry Linds. I ended up being way drunker than everyone else because of a new rule we incorporated into this game squares which involved me drinking for almost 20 minutes straight....ah well, at least I didn't throw up :).
On a completely different note, I'm getting better on dealing w/ my insane thought process. I don't know how many times I've written in here complaining about how I overanalyze every situation, and although it's completely true, it's something I'm working on. I gotta stop trying to do things because I think that's what everyone else wants or because that's what will make everyone else happy. I gotta start doing shit for me. And I have been lately and I'm starting to feel better about things. Also, I gotta stop taking everything personal. I'm working on it....with time everything will be better.