what is w/ everyone lately
Disclaimer - if you're not in the mood to read about me bitch, don't read this
I find myself increasingly irritated with most people lately. If you're still on my good side right now, pat yourself on the back because you've managed to evade the title of douchebag in my book. I honestly don't get what people's deals are lately. Not to mention the fact that if I never called people I wouldn't hear from them for weeks at a time...that's awesome. Whatever. Not only that though, but no one can fucking manage between being serious when you need to be but having a good time when it's necessary. People are just throwing all these shitty emotions out at the wrong times and it's pissing me off damnit. Learn to laugh when people are joking with you and learn to be serious when you're being lame. It's honestly not that hard people. Bah!!
Alright, so I'm probably just being fiesty because I decided just yesterday that I don't want to be a lawyer and probably never really wanted to be one all along. I was merely in it for the money. The shittiest thing is that I can't even think of anything that I want to do with Criminal Justice, Political Science, or Pre Law that doens't involve being a lawyer, going into law enforcement, or going into politics...none of which I want to do. So here I am, 3.5 semesters away from completing my undergrad and I don't know what I want to do with my life because as of right now, my majors are completely useless to me. Awesome.
Also, volleyball season has started and of course I can't deal with it. The team is not that good, but whatever, it's early...we can work on things. I hate setting. Alright, that's a lie, I like to set...I just hate that I'm not as good as I want to be yet. I always do this. Have this mental image of how good I should be and expect myself to be at a certain level too quickly into things. Plus, all I really want to do is play libero, but I can't because we don't have anyone else on the team who can set. Whatever, I'll get good one day. To top that off, the grad student who is in charge of the club teams this year is a huge douchebag. He's very unorganized and unprepared and never has any answers for anything, yet he insists on being extremely strict with his policies regardless of how little imformation he can provide as to what exactly he wants. Not to mention the fact that this is my first year as being president and I have no clue as to what's going on and Mark and Gordon only want to chastise me instead of helping me and make me feel ignorant when I want to ask them questions, thereby discouraging me from asking them questions ever again and fucking everything up.
Lastly, I have no free time and it's getting really old. I'm way to fucking busy with school, work, volleyball, sleep, and food to do anything else in my life and it pisses me off. I want some time to just do nothing but I never get that time. My room for instance is a fucking trash hole because I don't ever have time to clean it. Who the fuck said growing up was easy because they lied.
Ah well, at least i'll be wasted in like 4 hours.....though it is kind of sad that my only solice these days is getting shit faced because I forget about everything and can have a good time that way.
I find myself increasingly irritated with most people lately. If you're still on my good side right now, pat yourself on the back because you've managed to evade the title of douchebag in my book. I honestly don't get what people's deals are lately. Not to mention the fact that if I never called people I wouldn't hear from them for weeks at a time...that's awesome. Whatever. Not only that though, but no one can fucking manage between being serious when you need to be but having a good time when it's necessary. People are just throwing all these shitty emotions out at the wrong times and it's pissing me off damnit. Learn to laugh when people are joking with you and learn to be serious when you're being lame. It's honestly not that hard people. Bah!!
Alright, so I'm probably just being fiesty because I decided just yesterday that I don't want to be a lawyer and probably never really wanted to be one all along. I was merely in it for the money. The shittiest thing is that I can't even think of anything that I want to do with Criminal Justice, Political Science, or Pre Law that doens't involve being a lawyer, going into law enforcement, or going into politics...none of which I want to do. So here I am, 3.5 semesters away from completing my undergrad and I don't know what I want to do with my life because as of right now, my majors are completely useless to me. Awesome.
Also, volleyball season has started and of course I can't deal with it. The team is not that good, but whatever, it's early...we can work on things. I hate setting. Alright, that's a lie, I like to set...I just hate that I'm not as good as I want to be yet. I always do this. Have this mental image of how good I should be and expect myself to be at a certain level too quickly into things. Plus, all I really want to do is play libero, but I can't because we don't have anyone else on the team who can set. Whatever, I'll get good one day. To top that off, the grad student who is in charge of the club teams this year is a huge douchebag. He's very unorganized and unprepared and never has any answers for anything, yet he insists on being extremely strict with his policies regardless of how little imformation he can provide as to what exactly he wants. Not to mention the fact that this is my first year as being president and I have no clue as to what's going on and Mark and Gordon only want to chastise me instead of helping me and make me feel ignorant when I want to ask them questions, thereby discouraging me from asking them questions ever again and fucking everything up.
Lastly, I have no free time and it's getting really old. I'm way to fucking busy with school, work, volleyball, sleep, and food to do anything else in my life and it pisses me off. I want some time to just do nothing but I never get that time. My room for instance is a fucking trash hole because I don't ever have time to clean it. Who the fuck said growing up was easy because they lied.
Ah well, at least i'll be wasted in like 4 hours.....though it is kind of sad that my only solice these days is getting shit faced because I forget about everything and can have a good time that way.