Desperate For Changing... Starving for truth
i`m closer to where i started
i`m chasing after y0u
i found out everything i do wrong in mine `n davids realtionship. i am too controlling =[ idk wht to do!!! i just wanna be perfect for him. all i want need is him. i need anwsers. i`m all out of them =/. g0d wht i am going to d0. i hate myself. i hate myself so much. everything about me needs to change. i need to change. i have to change. theres nothing else i can do. I must be a nicer less-controlling, less- jealous, girlfriend. i must be a better friend. i need to be more outgoing. yet i need to be more shy. i need to be in the middle. i kan`t go back and forth like i have been. i need to be solid. this life is like a rollercoaster, as high as you go, you go just as low. also notice how it takes forever to get to the top? but less than half a second to get to the bottom. okay i also need to get things straighten out....
with david (-=be less, += be more)
-controlling
-jealousy
+ being sweet
+ being understanding
+ being nicer
- worrying
-symbolism
+ everything happens for a reason
with friends
-shy
+outgoing
+fun
+ caring
- sad
with school
+ more A`z
- missing assignments
+organization
anything else that i need to change? just let me know i`ll be up in my room crying
i love you david so much. i am so sorry for everything i`ve done wrong. i hope you can see that. and please don`t leave me i love you
i`m falling even more in love with you
i`m chasing after y0u
i found out everything i do wrong in mine `n davids realtionship. i am too controlling =[ idk wht to do!!! i just wanna be perfect for him. all i want need is him. i need anwsers. i`m all out of them =/. g0d wht i am going to d0. i hate myself. i hate myself so much. everything about me needs to change. i need to change. i have to change. theres nothing else i can do. I must be a nicer less-controlling, less- jealous, girlfriend. i must be a better friend. i need to be more outgoing. yet i need to be more shy. i need to be in the middle. i kan`t go back and forth like i have been. i need to be solid. this life is like a rollercoaster, as high as you go, you go just as low. also notice how it takes forever to get to the top? but less than half a second to get to the bottom. okay i also need to get things straighten out....
with david (-=be less, += be more)
-controlling
-jealousy
+ being sweet
+ being understanding
+ being nicer
- worrying
-symbolism
+ everything happens for a reason
with friends
-shy
+outgoing
+fun
+ caring
- sad
with school
+ more A`z
- missing assignments
+organization
anything else that i need to change? just let me know i`ll be up in my room crying
i love you david so much. i am so sorry for everything i`ve done wrong. i hope you can see that. and please don`t leave me i love you
i`m falling even more in love with you