and just to add insult to mortal injuries.
G D!!!
so as if having to face the possibility of not going back to school, i heard back from my english teacher who i though would have the most compassion for me....and tshe may just have bloody well torn out my freaking soul.
she said that while she's glad to hear that i liked the class and learned a lot in it, she thinks that i should not come back, nd that she wouldn't let me do anyhting to help change my grade out of fairness for the other students.
umm.
okay?
thank you. when (if) i go back i KNOW who I'm sending hate mail to.
anyhow.
one prof. down...one to go....i hope it works out okay...
i'm honestly this close to just saying fuck it.
why should i put all of this effort in when the odds are seroiusly stacked against me.its nt as if i've got a whole lot to go back for anyhow. my room mate rachel would miss me a lot...and probaby meghan too...but thats really it, i honestly dont think anyone else cares much. i'm sure even one or two people would be glad about it. god damnit. i'd say i've never been so miserable...but that's not true. mother fucker.
i wish i had a bloody drink.
i need to fish what's left of my ambition out of the black hole it's being sucked into and call some people.
Leigh and Pumpkin for starters.
take my phone in for a fixin' cause the demons that live inside it have finally taken over and refuse to let my phone stay on for more than 45.9 seconds.
also need to get my leather bomber jacket fixed
hit up Ark surplus
get inked
oh my god.
im so stressed out.
everyhting. is seriousy screwed up right now...
i need a hair cut...
i'm totally breaking out with all the stress, at least i'm not having panic attacks allthe time...
i need drugs.
lord
great..now everyone really WILL think blue is my favorite color.
you are steelblue
#4682B4
Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.
Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.
Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
apparently i'm also a feminist...
only because i opt to pour kerosene on people and burn them...
I'm pretty damn hard core! Fear me!
ah...
yeah...thats it.
i'm out.
so as if having to face the possibility of not going back to school, i heard back from my english teacher who i though would have the most compassion for me....and tshe may just have bloody well torn out my freaking soul.
she said that while she's glad to hear that i liked the class and learned a lot in it, she thinks that i should not come back, nd that she wouldn't let me do anyhting to help change my grade out of fairness for the other students.
umm.
okay?
thank you. when (if) i go back i KNOW who I'm sending hate mail to.
anyhow.
one prof. down...one to go....i hope it works out okay...
i'm honestly this close to just saying fuck it.
why should i put all of this effort in when the odds are seroiusly stacked against me.its nt as if i've got a whole lot to go back for anyhow. my room mate rachel would miss me a lot...and probaby meghan too...but thats really it, i honestly dont think anyone else cares much. i'm sure even one or two people would be glad about it. god damnit. i'd say i've never been so miserable...but that's not true. mother fucker.
i wish i had a bloody drink.
i need to fish what's left of my ambition out of the black hole it's being sucked into and call some people.
Leigh and Pumpkin for starters.
take my phone in for a fixin' cause the demons that live inside it have finally taken over and refuse to let my phone stay on for more than 45.9 seconds.
also need to get my leather bomber jacket fixed
hit up Ark surplus
get inked
oh my god.
im so stressed out.
everyhting. is seriousy screwed up right now...
i need a hair cut...
i'm totally breaking out with all the stress, at least i'm not having panic attacks allthe time...
i need drugs.
lord
great..now everyone really WILL think blue is my favorite color.
you are steelblue
#4682B4
Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.
Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.
Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
apparently i'm also a feminist...
only because i opt to pour kerosene on people and burn them...
I'm pretty damn hard core! Fear me!
ah...
yeah...thats it.
i'm out.