complicated

[jaded_lady]

for the ten thousandth time i'm wondering what it is about ME that turns these "good guys" with their nice-ness and their emotions and their genuinely kind hearts into liars who just don't fucking care at all.
i mean.
whatever.
whatever.
whatever.

this is just a good reminder
of why i do not trust anyone
except lauren
and my roommates
and my dog
and sometimes my dad
it's a short list
and it should be kept that way
for reasons just like this

fuck 'em. i'm tired of being pissed. i'm tired in general, of being sick with this death cold, of being too sick to go to class. of having nothing to say, except i'm sorry, when it's not my fault
and yet i'm the one who always ends up apologizing.