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its been a long few days....the 16th of sept would have been four years married, that was a long day...although its been over for a while, i still miss and love him dearly...
my friend was sentenced to 10 years in afghanistan prison
he will spend his 28th birthday in that prison
new tattoo coming
i love you brent
and i miss you
i have really just been stressed, lost weight - i dont eat, dont sleep all that well, money has been real tight
and my grandmother... sighs
its so hard
i feel so guilty going back to school and shes with a nurse, and she hates it, shes so mean, doesnt know where she is or who she is, or who i am, im normally just "the girl" and it breaks my heart, i hate to see her so confused, and i feel so terrible for leaving her home, its like...i dont know, heartwrenching
im a huge mess
i miss brent
and i miss oscar
and i miss chris
and a few others who shall remain nameless
sighs
sometimes being me is entertaining, at least in my own head
other times it seems to be not so fun
one of my guests at work (customers as they are normally called) asks me
"Are you always this chipper because id have to slap your ass on a monday morning"
me:"no, im just broke and need the money"
her: "college student?"
me"yes, 15 hours in school, 35 at work and the rest of the time with my grandmother, and time is thin"
her:"seriously??"
me:"yes"
her:"you should be sainted"
her:"how old are you?"
me:"26"
her:"and you look 18, except your eyes, they look aged"
hmm
now what do you say?
brent is forever on my mind, and will never be forgotten, i miss your hugs and our talks, i miss watching you beat ass at pool or spill the bong water, i miss your drunken smile and...you
i just miss you
i love you brent
my friend was sentenced to 10 years in afghanistan prison
he will spend his 28th birthday in that prison
new tattoo coming
i love you brent
and i miss you
i have really just been stressed, lost weight - i dont eat, dont sleep all that well, money has been real tight
and my grandmother... sighs
its so hard
i feel so guilty going back to school and shes with a nurse, and she hates it, shes so mean, doesnt know where she is or who she is, or who i am, im normally just "the girl" and it breaks my heart, i hate to see her so confused, and i feel so terrible for leaving her home, its like...i dont know, heartwrenching
im a huge mess
i miss brent
and i miss oscar
and i miss chris
and a few others who shall remain nameless
sighs
sometimes being me is entertaining, at least in my own head
other times it seems to be not so fun
one of my guests at work (customers as they are normally called) asks me
"Are you always this chipper because id have to slap your ass on a monday morning"
me:"no, im just broke and need the money"
her: "college student?"
me"yes, 15 hours in school, 35 at work and the rest of the time with my grandmother, and time is thin"
her:"seriously??"
me:"yes"
her:"you should be sainted"
her:"how old are you?"
me:"26"
her:"and you look 18, except your eyes, they look aged"
hmm
now what do you say?
brent is forever on my mind, and will never be forgotten, i miss your hugs and our talks, i miss watching you beat ass at pool or spill the bong water, i miss your drunken smile and...you
i just miss you
i love you brent