ok so FUCK ME
"you have the right to be angry"
"you have the right to feel the way you do"
betrayed, disrespected, stabbed in the back and lied too, let down and i have a shattered heart
thats how i feel
and who the fuck are you to tell me that i have the right to feel this way
fuck you
i feel this way because of you
what doesnt kill us makes us stronger
and here i go, going against my better judgement, trying to do something i thought would be helpful, but it was taken as spiteful, not talking shit, but just letting some things be known
so maybe shit can be squashed
put some truth or validity to it
or show it to be just what it could possibly be
rumors
rumors ?
in here?
surely you jest, those things dont happen
ahahahah
coug*bullshit*cough
i dont do drama
which is one reason i stayed away from LJ for so long
it became a sesspool of negative and spiteful entries and posts, and well, i just am not doing that this go around
so here's what i have to say to that
dont fucking comment if its negative, this is where *I* write, this is where *I* get my emotions and feelings out, and i will do just that
say what i mean
mean what i say
and i dont give a fuck
i have dealt with my demons
and am handling ones just thrown in my face
and im doing a fucking good job
and those who dont think so
can kiss
my
fucking
ass
im sitting here with my hands on the keyboard, for some reason thinking of what ill say next
when i think ill just sit here and let the words flow
things have been crazy
felt alot of love in the past year and a half
encountered more heartache because of it
3 special people
2 married to other people
1 unattainable
and yet i mourn for all three in their own ways
people always ask me
"why dont you date"
bah
it all leads to this in the end
love
feeling so special
looking forward to the next time you talk
or spend time together
then that fades
slowly you grow apart
until it comes to a head
good, bad indifferent
bad is always the worst
my heart aches
and everytime i try to mend
something else happens
one blow after another
and going through withdrawals
one blow after another
feeling sick
one blow after another
feeling alone
one blow after another
being alone
one blow after another
one blow after another
one blow after another...
one...blow...after...another...
then sometimes when you think it doenst get any worse
low and behold it does
its like
so how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie roll pop
so how much stress, disappointment, heartache and pain can one human being take?
i dont know
but when i break ill let you know
i havent broken yet
fuck em
you cant break me
im too strong on the inside
although my strength surprises me
my support group is awesome
i told my mom of my habits
illegal ones
and that was the biggest step i have ever taken
she sat with me
cried with me
and supported me
i dont know what id do without her
babble babble
its bowl time, more to come later
"you have the right to feel the way you do"
betrayed, disrespected, stabbed in the back and lied too, let down and i have a shattered heart
thats how i feel
and who the fuck are you to tell me that i have the right to feel this way
fuck you
i feel this way because of you
what doesnt kill us makes us stronger
and here i go, going against my better judgement, trying to do something i thought would be helpful, but it was taken as spiteful, not talking shit, but just letting some things be known
so maybe shit can be squashed
put some truth or validity to it
or show it to be just what it could possibly be
rumors
rumors ?
in here?
surely you jest, those things dont happen
ahahahah
coug*bullshit*cough
i dont do drama
which is one reason i stayed away from LJ for so long
it became a sesspool of negative and spiteful entries and posts, and well, i just am not doing that this go around
so here's what i have to say to that
dont fucking comment if its negative, this is where *I* write, this is where *I* get my emotions and feelings out, and i will do just that
say what i mean
mean what i say
and i dont give a fuck
i have dealt with my demons
and am handling ones just thrown in my face
and im doing a fucking good job
and those who dont think so
can kiss
my
fucking
ass
im sitting here with my hands on the keyboard, for some reason thinking of what ill say next
when i think ill just sit here and let the words flow
things have been crazy
felt alot of love in the past year and a half
encountered more heartache because of it
3 special people
2 married to other people
1 unattainable
and yet i mourn for all three in their own ways
people always ask me
"why dont you date"
bah
it all leads to this in the end
love
feeling so special
looking forward to the next time you talk
or spend time together
then that fades
slowly you grow apart
until it comes to a head
good, bad indifferent
bad is always the worst
my heart aches
and everytime i try to mend
something else happens
one blow after another
and going through withdrawals
one blow after another
feeling sick
one blow after another
feeling alone
one blow after another
being alone
one blow after another
one blow after another
one blow after another...
one...blow...after...another...
then sometimes when you think it doenst get any worse
low and behold it does
its like
so how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie roll pop
so how much stress, disappointment, heartache and pain can one human being take?
i dont know
but when i break ill let you know
i havent broken yet
fuck em
you cant break me
im too strong on the inside
although my strength surprises me
my support group is awesome
i told my mom of my habits
illegal ones
and that was the biggest step i have ever taken
she sat with me
cried with me
and supported me
i dont know what id do without her
babble babble
its bowl time, more to come later