You must be the change you wish to see in the world
That quotation from Ghandi seemed to be a recurring theme at my Orientation on Thursday and Friday, and it really stuck with me. The entire Orientation experience made me realize that a chapter of my life is ending, and another is beginning. Obvious, right? Well that means a lot for me. So much has happened to me in the past two years, a lot of it I regret. But I've been thinking on it, and I realized that it's time I let it go. The events of the past two years seem so far away sometimes, and I plan to leave them there, they will always remain in my memory, but I'm going to let the pain go, I think it's time.
I can honestly say that I'm happy, I'm in love with life. My life is genuinely looking up, I've got great friends, my family is amazing, I'm going to college and I've got a boy that's been with me through it all and who genuinely loves me, and I love him. Life is beautiful.
There are a lot of memories here, in this city, at my high school, at my house, but I'm moving to an entirely new city to have an entirely new set of experiences. A lot of these places bring back painful memories just by seeing them, but in a short while I won't be seeing them. Sure, it's not that I won't ever see them again, but there will at least be a degree of separation, I won't be seeing them every day. I wouldn't have this any other way; hopefully this will help me in the process of moving on.
There are two people in particular that I've hated, but I'm going to let it go; they're no longer in my life and they will never again be part of it. There are a lot of people that I don't mind leaving behind, some of them will be missed, but if I don't see them that often any more, it's no great tragedy. There is only a handful of people here that I will truly miss and will actively make an effort to keep in contact with. I know that sounds horrible, but I'm being brutally honest.
It's time to start being honest, being real, and stop living in the past- I've been there for far too long. I need to start looking at where I am and where I'm going. College is going to be great because I'm going to make it that way. I'm going to live how I should have been living a long time ago.
"I'm Moving On"- Rascal Flatts
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
I can honestly say that I'm happy, I'm in love with life. My life is genuinely looking up, I've got great friends, my family is amazing, I'm going to college and I've got a boy that's been with me through it all and who genuinely loves me, and I love him. Life is beautiful.
There are a lot of memories here, in this city, at my high school, at my house, but I'm moving to an entirely new city to have an entirely new set of experiences. A lot of these places bring back painful memories just by seeing them, but in a short while I won't be seeing them. Sure, it's not that I won't ever see them again, but there will at least be a degree of separation, I won't be seeing them every day. I wouldn't have this any other way; hopefully this will help me in the process of moving on.
There are two people in particular that I've hated, but I'm going to let it go; they're no longer in my life and they will never again be part of it. There are a lot of people that I don't mind leaving behind, some of them will be missed, but if I don't see them that often any more, it's no great tragedy. There is only a handful of people here that I will truly miss and will actively make an effort to keep in contact with. I know that sounds horrible, but I'm being brutally honest.
It's time to start being honest, being real, and stop living in the past- I've been there for far too long. I need to start looking at where I am and where I'm going. College is going to be great because I'm going to make it that way. I'm going to live how I should have been living a long time ago.
"I'm Moving On"- Rascal Flatts
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on