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For some reason, the past few days I have felt so numb inside. I haven't been able to feel happy or anything.
I have been feeling so guilty. But I don't know what about.
I miss being challenged on things. In primary school, I was the smartest and sportiest person. I didn't even have to go for a test to see if I could go to a selective high school, they just went off my marks.
Anyway, I didn't end up going to Penrith Selective High, I ended going to stupid St Agnes.
In primary school, I was captain of the school - I don't know how because I was always being a brat. I was captain of the afl team, captain of the volleyball team, captain of the basketball team, captain of the soft ball team, captain of the cricket team and captain of the rugby team. I was the only girl in the rugby and cricket teams.
Everyone wanted to be my friend, and everyone wanted to be me. Everyone was challenging me. But what for? All that success early in my life, screwed me up for life.
I know am pretty much useless at everything. I'm only good at english (i can read excellent, but my spelling sucks), PE, metalwork, woodwork, music and thats basically all.
I have lost interest in school because I had too must success in primary school. - well i havent exactly lost interest in school. i love school. i love the intellectual stimulation. and i sleep all day because its the only way that i can deal with stress.
After a while, the success means nothing to you, and now, it means nothing to me. As much as I loved it, I hated it more.
Things are so different in high school, most people at my school only go by your looks, instead of sporting ability or intellect. Unfortunately I'm not that good looking! But I'm not terrible.
People say that I have natural beauty, bet, ehh, I don't know. I don't really want to talk about my looks.
Nothing seems to be going right for me at the moment.
It's a saturday night, and I'mon here, writing about my feelings, all because I can't talk to any of my friends because I think that they won't understand.
I have been feeling so guilty. But I don't know what about.
I miss being challenged on things. In primary school, I was the smartest and sportiest person. I didn't even have to go for a test to see if I could go to a selective high school, they just went off my marks.
Anyway, I didn't end up going to Penrith Selective High, I ended going to stupid St Agnes.
In primary school, I was captain of the school - I don't know how because I was always being a brat. I was captain of the afl team, captain of the volleyball team, captain of the basketball team, captain of the soft ball team, captain of the cricket team and captain of the rugby team. I was the only girl in the rugby and cricket teams.
Everyone wanted to be my friend, and everyone wanted to be me. Everyone was challenging me. But what for? All that success early in my life, screwed me up for life.
I know am pretty much useless at everything. I'm only good at english (i can read excellent, but my spelling sucks), PE, metalwork, woodwork, music and thats basically all.
I have lost interest in school because I had too must success in primary school. - well i havent exactly lost interest in school. i love school. i love the intellectual stimulation. and i sleep all day because its the only way that i can deal with stress.
After a while, the success means nothing to you, and now, it means nothing to me. As much as I loved it, I hated it more.
Things are so different in high school, most people at my school only go by your looks, instead of sporting ability or intellect. Unfortunately I'm not that good looking! But I'm not terrible.
People say that I have natural beauty, bet, ehh, I don't know. I don't really want to talk about my looks.
Nothing seems to be going right for me at the moment.
It's a saturday night, and I'mon here, writing about my feelings, all because I can't talk to any of my friends because I think that they won't understand.