I'm stuck
ok i wanna figure out who i am and why i am the way i am. it's so confusing. i'm so complex. i feel alone but i know i'm not. I am a completely selfish person b/c i always want attention. i hate being alone. i am jealous of everyone. i get jealous of my own boyfriend when he goes out nad has fun with his friends while i'm at home. but i cant expect him to mope around like an idiot like me. it's not his fault he has a bigger more exciting life. i'm beginning to believe i'll never be good enough for him. i can never tell him that cuz he wont ever let me believe it. he's always making me believe i'm beautiful to him and everything and i'm this and that. i just dont see it. but he has me convinced...til he stops saying it lol. but it's ok cuz he reminds me alot. i went to see him b/c our relationship was at stake and i am no way giving up on me and him. i love him and i trully believe if we just fight it , and work through it, we'll be ok. turns out, shit went down and i just couldnt stay up there. it wasnt his fault really. but now i'm jobless and have no money. i applied at blue bayou and i got a couple callbacks, went in for an interview and i'm waiting to here word back tomorrow morning. jake and his friends i guess are gonna be trying to get a place of their own. meanwhile i'm not sure what to do with my money or anything...i'm confused.