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I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm sick of being at school... I miss classes all the time. I find myself getting out of class and wanting to come home as soon as possible.. except I really don't want to come home. I'm not happy at home anymore. The thing is, I don't know where else to go. I don't want to live on campus, but I don't want to live here. I don't think I'm ready to be on my own yet, but I'm miserable at home. My mother makes it miserable for me. I don't know what I do wrong to make her pick at me all the time...
All this stress is very hard to deal with. Going to school, working two jobs.. my mom acts as if I'm completely out of control and I'm a lousy daughter. I don't know what else she wants from me. I'm starting to develop my own life and become more independent from them. I help her with expenses and with work around the house. I'm working hard in school and in my job.. I don't know what else I can possibly do.
We sat down and had a talk for the first time ever.. literally. We have never had an open-minded discussion in the 18 years that I have been alive. I thought it would help things. I told her the things that she did that bothered me. She seemed to understand. But that was a long 2 nights ago, and now everything's back to normal.
My sister has been treating me like crap. I have no friends left here anymore. I am so grateful to have Sean here with me, because if he weren't here I'd have nobody; even so.. somehow I feel so alone and completely worthless. That's how my mother has always made me feel. It hurts so much..
All this stress is very hard to deal with. Going to school, working two jobs.. my mom acts as if I'm completely out of control and I'm a lousy daughter. I don't know what else she wants from me. I'm starting to develop my own life and become more independent from them. I help her with expenses and with work around the house. I'm working hard in school and in my job.. I don't know what else I can possibly do.
We sat down and had a talk for the first time ever.. literally. We have never had an open-minded discussion in the 18 years that I have been alive. I thought it would help things. I told her the things that she did that bothered me. She seemed to understand. But that was a long 2 nights ago, and now everything's back to normal.
My sister has been treating me like crap. I have no friends left here anymore. I am so grateful to have Sean here with me, because if he weren't here I'd have nobody; even so.. somehow I feel so alone and completely worthless. That's how my mother has always made me feel. It hurts so much..