Weird conversation ..
... So recently I had this person from my past come up to me and apologize for being so mean.. For beig a jerk.. And all that jazz.. He assures me that he's gotten his.. " whatever goes around comes around".. I remeber I use to think at night if only I could ask why.. N now that it was in front of my face.. I didn't wanna hear it.. He was supposedly my first love. Lol .. And I laugh cuz boy was I wrong..(I was like 16 lol.. My first bf) I recently found the true meaning of that word we throw around do much.."love".. Yeap after 4 years.. Lol ..its Not a feeling but more of a choice u make everyday.. And well I hate to say it but that past relationship.. N others affected now..I let them.. I carried excess baggage that I didn't need to.. I was scarred to committ.. In fear of getting my heart broken ..I made a wall .. I didn't let anything go in or out.. But I'm glad I have a fighter.. But I learned to let go of tht.. And not let my past control my future..
So I look at him and he's still the sAme.. Full of himself.. And still childish.. But one thing I am grateful for was that he acknowledge he was a jerk.. I didn't deserve to be treated that way.. I guess I can mark that one off the books..
The world is not full of bad ppl.. There just full of bad experiences.. They let themselves be run by their past..
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