after so long
I never thought that I would be returning to make another entry. An entire decade has elapsed since my words last existed in this medium. I suppose the holidays, potent nostalgia mixed with substances have me returning to previous entries, not just of myself but also of long dead friends and former residents in the form of LJ friends.
I really don't write now about my life in any capacity with exception of text-based roleplaying on Second Life but even I have taken a break from that medium because I have real life priorities.
To update those who still occasionally read, I've been consistently employed since 2015 through a mental health program. I've done hospitality, retail and I am currently working with animals in the form of three jobs at the moment - pet sitting, dog daycare, and a veterinary answering service.
Aside from employment I've lost many loved ones in the form of both human and animal. My dad who I wrote of so frequently passed from lymphoma in 2021. Despite our differences as you can see from the past I loved him and the moment he passed I forgave him everything. His absence is a constant nagging emptiness that resides in the pit of my stomach. He's in my thoughts and at the tip of my tongue. I've dreamt of him a few times and crave for the moments when he makes his presence known.
How frequently I would complain about him and his negative behaviors. I would give anything for him to hang up on me again or to even curse at me. Just to hear his voice would be a balm to the open wound that I treat with sour fruits of existence that provide temporary relief.
I will write more but sleep is claiming me. I have missed you all and whether or not you read this, I am glad you are here.