i seriously need a change of scene.

[jade_escalade]

i hate everyone in my life.
all i want for christmas is two plane tickets to anywhere.
i just want out.
i hate when people lay shit out on the table about you to seem cool/mature.
fuck that.
and fuck me for every letting myself get invovled with such a little boy.

honestly though,
i never commit and the one time i was about to, it gets squawshed.
i have no idea why i am still even thinking about this.
it just drives me mad that i was the one to get hurt.
i would like to blame karma but truly it is just my fault.

i just walked home from a party cause i have seriously had enough.
you are going to regret it.
i am so sorry for it but it is the truth i know you better than you think.
perhaps maybe this time you can get some closure.
that is what i hope for.
i dont want to see you get hurt.

i dont know why people feel like they need someone else in order to survive?
i have just given up.
i am not looking for it anymore.
its for the birds and for people who cant think for themselves.