No more poison
So it's been just over a week since I quit smoking.
Overall it's no big, I haven't really craved them or anything.
How I'm doing it?...
I made a promise that I wouldn't buy myself anymore ciggarettes. I never said I'd stop smoking, just that I wouldn't be providing myself with them. With my convoluted sense of right and wrong that means that I can't ask for them (I'd be buying them with a favor), can't give someone money to pick them up for me, and can't go buy them myself.
Since these are the easiest ways to get ciggies...
It's not that I want to quit, I don't really care one way or the other, which is why I had to word things the way I did. Logic is telling me it's a good idea since I was up to a pack every two days (sometimes more depending on stress levels). I know that my health is fucked up as long as I smoke but that just didn't matter to me. Now money, money matters. The amount I've been spending on that could have gone to all kinds of stuff for Chris.
Speaking of Chris, he doesn't want me doing it (even though he doesn't consider them real ciggs since they're cloves and I told him they weren't the same).
Overall it's no big, I haven't really craved them or anything.
How I'm doing it?...
I made a promise that I wouldn't buy myself anymore ciggarettes. I never said I'd stop smoking, just that I wouldn't be providing myself with them. With my convoluted sense of right and wrong that means that I can't ask for them (I'd be buying them with a favor), can't give someone money to pick them up for me, and can't go buy them myself.
Since these are the easiest ways to get ciggies...
It's not that I want to quit, I don't really care one way or the other, which is why I had to word things the way I did. Logic is telling me it's a good idea since I was up to a pack every two days (sometimes more depending on stress levels). I know that my health is fucked up as long as I smoke but that just didn't matter to me. Now money, money matters. The amount I've been spending on that could have gone to all kinds of stuff for Chris.
Speaking of Chris, he doesn't want me doing it (even though he doesn't consider them real ciggs since they're cloves and I told him they weren't the same).