Hopeless Romantic Drabble
"IF ONLY" was on tonight, I watched it.
hehe of course I did! I was saying to my bro, no matter what movie I watch it seems to be a hopeless romantic one.
This one is going on my faves list, it's such a tearjerker.
It's got Jennifer Love Hewitt in it, she sings two songs in the movie, I'm downloading them now before I go to bed lol..
Last night or technically 'early this morning' I was watching CITY OF ANGELS again and no shock suprise here, but when I was watching both these movies I couldn't stop thinking about Jesse! (here we go again, that's what your thinking lol) Some of you may be sick of hearing be go on and on about Jesse, how we haven't seen or spoken to each other in years, how much I miss him, wondering if he misses me, that I like him heaps...yadda yadda yadda. hehe
I have his number and I haven't called him yet! I know, I kick myself for it everyday that goes by and I haven't done anything to get in contact with him.
It's cos I'm a chicken and I've come to this realisation ages ago, I remember ranting about it lol. I'm afraid he won't feel the same way...I wouldn't tell him how I feel first off, like Amy's suggestion a year ago to go to his house, kick down his bedroom door and jump him :p Seems like a good idea I know lmao. I don't know him anymore...first off I'd like to get to know him again and go from there...and I've told you Lisa and Sophie this a hundred times and you two are probably like "JUST TELL HIM ALICIA!" hehe, trust me, I tell myself to do it everyday............. I've been thinking about Jesse way too much lately...this past week, I had a really vivid dream of me and Jesse kissing (I haven't had one of those lifelike ones in AGES) It was so vivid though, when I woke up I could still feel his lips on mine..I was grinning like a dork for the whole day...then last night I watch CITY OF ANGELS and I'm playing "Iris" non-stop thinking about him..then I flick on channel 7 tonight to see what movie is on and bam! "If Only" is on and I think of him more....fitting title don'tcha think? "If Only..."
If Only I had the guts to tell him how I feel
If Only these many dreams would someday be real
***I think I'll turn that into a song ^ haha***
It's 12:02am, I better get to bed, I got school in the morning...In the arvo I'm going to the Optometrist to get my eyes re-tested..I've been getting headaches lately.
Then on Tuesday, much joy - I have a date with a flu shot at the Doctors! It's the Maninga-coccol needle, and I know I've spelt that wrong :p ( I hate getting needles)
Anywho, I've had my rant.
I just had to post it somewhere.
Goodnight!