its your godforsaken right to be loved...

[jade_a_lade]

well it has begun....summers here. and its bittersweet. i hated leaving. i wanna be there so bad while everyone else is. the end of this here has been so awkward. the entire time i've been focusing on school and bringing up my gpa and final papers and whatnot, all the while remembering that justines not coming back next year and i'm gonna miss her uncontrollably. next yr wont be the same without her. and then ill miss everyone else too! paige, brian, amy, melissa, ashley, EVERYONE i cant even name them all. and then i didnt want it to end because that just means i have to tell my mom that i failed. but now theres california on saturday and i should be super excited except i JUST moved out today and now i have to unpack and repack and everythings so rushed i feel like i dont have time to switch emotions.
ok so overall:

+no more schoolwork

-no more school friends until september

+home friends

+beach

-WORK

-breaking news to mom

+california!

+jason mraz concert- passed but was AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-being home EVERY SINGLE DAY

i just got drunk dialed by jenna, melissa, amy, and brian morelli and they just made me cry lol. amys apparently crying cuz she misses me lol. WHYD I HAVE TO LEAVE SO EARLY?! this sucks so bad. i hate knowing that im missing out on stuff. i also hate MISSING PEOPLE :(

ok so im gonna stop reminiscing and making myself sad now. summers here....3 months...my birthdays coming up. i get to be at the beach every day of my life. i get to be with the friends i havent seen in months.

why am i not as excited as i should be?