New Heights
January 2019 to June 2021.
I've been trying to write it all down, collect my thoughts, play detective. It all makes sense. I understand why I did the things I did and why he did the things he did. It doesn't change the pain but it eases it. I'm so leery for those that date young--just wait. Please. Know who you are first before you're wrapped up in something that isn't even real.
Life doesn't have to be so hard or painful. Life can be lovely and beautiful. We went on an afternoon date and he took me to a trailed park. We took silly photos and he told me he loved me. We then came home and did yard work together. Then we made dinner. Afterwards I decided I needed a walk around our new park this evening as the sun was setting. Before I said goodbye, my partner said "Don't stay out too long. I want to hang out with you tonight."
It's as simple as that. I don't beg for his attention because he willingly gives it. This is all I ever wanted and he's mine.
I love you Bryan.
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.
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You are a thunderous thing, wondrous king
The face of rival-less gods, deep in your thoughts
Come here, oh, closer to touch, never enough
Let me climb under your skin, oh let me in
From your lips a precipice
I hang from every word
Height and seeking
Oh we are reaching
New heights and seeking
How to keep them high
The calm of turbulent seas, fallen to sleep
And when the troubles arise, we hold on tight
How can a body contain something so great
My shell may suddenly burst out will come birds
I've been trying to write it all down, collect my thoughts, play detective. It all makes sense. I understand why I did the things I did and why he did the things he did. It doesn't change the pain but it eases it. I'm so leery for those that date young--just wait. Please. Know who you are first before you're wrapped up in something that isn't even real.
Life doesn't have to be so hard or painful. Life can be lovely and beautiful. We went on an afternoon date and he took me to a trailed park. We took silly photos and he told me he loved me. We then came home and did yard work together. Then we made dinner. Afterwards I decided I needed a walk around our new park this evening as the sun was setting. Before I said goodbye, my partner said "Don't stay out too long. I want to hang out with you tonight."
It's as simple as that. I don't beg for his attention because he willingly gives it. This is all I ever wanted and he's mine.
I love you Bryan.
.
.
.
You are a thunderous thing, wondrous king
The face of rival-less gods, deep in your thoughts
Come here, oh, closer to touch, never enough
Let me climb under your skin, oh let me in
From your lips a precipice
I hang from every word
Height and seeking
Oh we are reaching
New heights and seeking
How to keep them high
The calm of turbulent seas, fallen to sleep
And when the troubles arise, we hold on tight
How can a body contain something so great
My shell may suddenly burst out will come birds