Few things i feel like talking about...
topic #1:
i'm highly considering buying a theramin and being a virtuoso on it,
because how many people are there who can play it well?
i could make a lot of money just doing it on the side for recording companies.
idk though...the kinda legit ones are $200 on ebay
i saw some even more pro ones for $4,300. kinda steep.
maybe i'll start out small, train my talent, once i get discovered and get some money from it, i'll invest in my talent.
anyways...just a thought.
topic #2:
i just forgot...crap.
oh yea!
well grades HAD to be posted by today...too bad the internet hates me and csun.edu isn't working.
just my luck.
ugh.
even though i already know my grades,
i haven't gotten straight A's since idk when...so i want to see them dang it!
topic #3:
idk why people give girls such a hard time about being in a bad mood or in pain when they are on that time of the month.
i mean just think about it...a large organ of your body is bleeding out! a layer of your body is disappearing at an alarming rate.
it's messed up. its exhausting. its painful. and it sucks. i'd like to see boys deal with it with as much composure as girls do.
we should get more sympathy.
topic #4:
i wonder if he loves me.
i wonder what he thinks sometimes. he doesn't speak his mind much.
idk...it's confusing. i wanna ask but i really don't care enough to freak him out if he's not even thinking abou that, i just kinda want to know.
if he's taking it emotionally slow then hey that's fine with me, but if he feels a certain way about me, i want to know.
i think I'M just a little hesitant to admit if i love him, because it's not like he's sending mixed signals, i just think i might be overanalyzing.
i'm crazy. who knows. but maybe i'm just crazy enough to take a chance and put myself out there.
honestly, who knows how it'll turn out.
whether i tell him or not won't really change the outcome much. it's gonna either be good or bad no matter what i say.
i think i just don't want to steal his thunder if i say it first either.
but who knows...idk guys are so hard to descipher sometimes. or maybe i'm just whistful thinking. guys say what they mean [or at least they say they do] so maybe he's not ready to say that cause he doesn't mean it.
or maybe he's afraid. that's my guess.
topic #5:
i really really really really really really really really really wish i was in europe right now. i want to go back. sometimes i just wish i could escape.
this time, without the drama.
i just want to enjoy it. take it in. go back and experience the culture. the love. you could just feel so connected to the earth out there.
in america we get caught up in ourselves, and our personal advancement.
in europe, they aren't work-a-holics like us. time goes slower. people don't need to gorge themselves to be happy. the days are long, but not in the sense that you are waiting for them to end, you take in every moment and treasure it. the parties never stop. the people are so interesting. the history is so amazing, the monuments so monumental, the culture so rich, the idea so appealing.
if my family could travel there, they'd see why i want to live there.
ok i'm done.
<3
i'm highly considering buying a theramin and being a virtuoso on it,
because how many people are there who can play it well?
i could make a lot of money just doing it on the side for recording companies.
idk though...the kinda legit ones are $200 on ebay
i saw some even more pro ones for $4,300. kinda steep.
maybe i'll start out small, train my talent, once i get discovered and get some money from it, i'll invest in my talent.
anyways...just a thought.
topic #2:
i just forgot...crap.
oh yea!
well grades HAD to be posted by today...too bad the internet hates me and csun.edu isn't working.
just my luck.
ugh.
even though i already know my grades,
i haven't gotten straight A's since idk when...so i want to see them dang it!
topic #3:
idk why people give girls such a hard time about being in a bad mood or in pain when they are on that time of the month.
i mean just think about it...a large organ of your body is bleeding out! a layer of your body is disappearing at an alarming rate.
it's messed up. its exhausting. its painful. and it sucks. i'd like to see boys deal with it with as much composure as girls do.
we should get more sympathy.
topic #4:
i wonder if he loves me.
i wonder what he thinks sometimes. he doesn't speak his mind much.
idk...it's confusing. i wanna ask but i really don't care enough to freak him out if he's not even thinking abou that, i just kinda want to know.
if he's taking it emotionally slow then hey that's fine with me, but if he feels a certain way about me, i want to know.
i think I'M just a little hesitant to admit if i love him, because it's not like he's sending mixed signals, i just think i might be overanalyzing.
i'm crazy. who knows. but maybe i'm just crazy enough to take a chance and put myself out there.
honestly, who knows how it'll turn out.
whether i tell him or not won't really change the outcome much. it's gonna either be good or bad no matter what i say.
i think i just don't want to steal his thunder if i say it first either.
but who knows...idk guys are so hard to descipher sometimes. or maybe i'm just whistful thinking. guys say what they mean [or at least they say they do] so maybe he's not ready to say that cause he doesn't mean it.
or maybe he's afraid. that's my guess.
topic #5:
i really really really really really really really really really wish i was in europe right now. i want to go back. sometimes i just wish i could escape.
this time, without the drama.
i just want to enjoy it. take it in. go back and experience the culture. the love. you could just feel so connected to the earth out there.
in america we get caught up in ourselves, and our personal advancement.
in europe, they aren't work-a-holics like us. time goes slower. people don't need to gorge themselves to be happy. the days are long, but not in the sense that you are waiting for them to end, you take in every moment and treasure it. the parties never stop. the people are so interesting. the history is so amazing, the monuments so monumental, the culture so rich, the idea so appealing.
if my family could travel there, they'd see why i want to live there.
ok i'm done.
<3