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if you've ever been depressed, then maybe you know where i'm coming from. it’s like one minute you’re fine, & the next minute something happens that makes you think, i mean really think, & then you’re totally empty. the only thoughts that are in your head are negative & it makes you feel totally alone, like you don't mean anything to anyone. all you want to do is tell someone how you feel, but you don't want their pity, & even if you could tell someone, nothing would come out right. you don't want to laugh or smile, or whine, or argue, or even be stubborn or difficult, you just want to go to bed & cry & hope this feeling passes, & sometimes it does, but it always seems to come back. you think that all your friends hate you & only talk to you because they feel bad for you. you know complete strangers judge you just because of how you look & how you act, & when you think about how you’re not as beautiful as the crowd that surrounds you, it makes you feel even worse. & of the two people that are supposed to love you the most in the world, one left you, & the other has to scream at you sometimes because they get angry & upset too. you feel like you will probably search your whole life for that one person that you can totally trust that you can love forever, who will never ever hurt you, but you know somewhere deep down that you'll probably never find him. he probably doesn’t even exist, so you just give up, you want so desperately to be alone, but at the same time you fear it so much. you know how it feels to know that you’re a bad person, to let your friends down & always be selfish, isolated, self conscious, bitter, whiny, & obsessive. you listen to what everyone else has to say, but you never tell them how YOU feel, because that would mean revealing part of yourself, & you just can't do that; you can't let anyone really know you. & your opinion wouldn't matter to them anyway, & most of all if you took the time to sit down & try to get all your feelings out for the first time in your life, it would be completely overwhelming & if anyone ever listened to all of that, they would have to agree with you 100 percent.
-» sure - I think other guys are cute, but
everytime I see a cute guy - I remind my
self of how cute you are, of how much I
love you --- of how sweet you are, of
how you can always brighten my day, &
suddenly that other guy doesn`t look so
good anymore -- so I look the other way
See there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.
If in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love.
you know what i want? i want someone who will argue with me over little things & then won't talk to me for a while. but then after that, he'll come up behind me & wrap his arms around me & tell me he's sorry & he loves me.
a heart breaking isn’t always as loud as a bomb exploding. sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling. & the most painful thing is, no one really hears it except you
when you think about it.. your love life could be like a frustrating movie. everyone is yelling at the screen, 'tell him you love him!', but you just can't seem to get it out
many nights i sit here aching to talk to you.. just because i need you to make me smile, but there are so many nights when you make me sad.. & want to cry. even through that, i'll see you one night & you'll give me your look & say a couple words.. & there i am again at night wanting to talk to you even more
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-» sure - I think other guys are cute, but
everytime I see a cute guy - I remind my
self of how cute you are, of how much I
love you --- of how sweet you are, of
how you can always brighten my day, &
suddenly that other guy doesn`t look so
good anymore -- so I look the other way
See there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.
If in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love.
you know what i want? i want someone who will argue with me over little things & then won't talk to me for a while. but then after that, he'll come up behind me & wrap his arms around me & tell me he's sorry & he loves me.
a heart breaking isn’t always as loud as a bomb exploding. sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling. & the most painful thing is, no one really hears it except you
when you think about it.. your love life could be like a frustrating movie. everyone is yelling at the screen, 'tell him you love him!', but you just can't seem to get it out
many nights i sit here aching to talk to you.. just because i need you to make me smile, but there are so many nights when you make me sad.. & want to cry. even through that, i'll see you one night & you'll give me your look & say a couple words.. & there i am again at night wanting to talk to you even more
comments = love <33