I'll run away with you, by my side
Too much too talk about, don't know where to start.
Okay here it goes, So I was living in California, loving it to death. I swear that is where I'm ment to be. One day I'll be there again. So anyways, I had to move back, as much as I didn't want too. I felt bad for leaving my roommate, but I knew I had too. Everytime I see my dad he is worse and worse. He is really old and still smokin' and drinkin' hardcore. I know he doesn't have much time left. I used to pray everynight that he would at least be able see me graduate and to my surprise he made it. I never told anyone this....., but that was a big reason why I graduated a year early. I really wanna spend more time with him and #2 it's expensive, and my dad keeps on complaining about money because of my fucking step mom. Well I lied to my roomate. I shouldn't have, but I just felt bad moving out. It's not like I screwed her over or anything, she had that place before she even knew I was moving down there. She was gonna find a roomate once she started school. Well whats the big difference this semester? She can do the same thing. Well my phone doesn't work too well down in Vegas so I didn't talk to her for about 3 weeks. Well her mom came down to my dad's house and told my dad what I said. The only thing that really pissed me off was that she said I failed my classes. Thats fucked up, I didn't an A and a B. I failed astronomy, but he already knew that. Thats just messed up to tall something like that to my dad when she had no idea. I even told Alex what I got, but anyways my dad was pissed, hell I would be too. Well anyways we got it all squared away. Its over and done with. The only thing that I hate, is I lost a pretty good friend. We wern't that close, but we were a lot the same. She was a really good roommate.
Well I just read something I shouln'd have. I just don't understand. It seems like I ment shit to him. I don't want to say anymore. It's fine, and to tell you the truth when we finally ended I didn't think or miss you one bit, for the first time I was truely happy. I actually felt bad for the girl you were gonna date next. She didn't know what she was getting herself into. I don't miss our relationship one bit, it was shit, and you treated me really badly. I'm not saying it was all your fault, but I would have done anything for you and I think everyone knows it.
You will always be a big part in my life for saving me though, for some damn reason I'm ment to be here.
You care so much what they think of you. When there mad at you, you are hurt so badly, but when they do one little thing for you act as though they are your best friends and they never do you wrong. They have all spit in your eye and yet for some reason you don't care. In your eyes they never do anything wrong and their the only ppl. who do you good. Well I have been there for you through everything, you just hurt me really badly. Thats all.
When I was in the hospital, my mom learned a lot from me. As some of you know I am not close with my family. I love my mom so much, she has the biggest heart and was there by my side 24/7 while I was in the hospital. She sacraficed a lot for me those couple of days. When I was all better she said, " I never knew how much your friends mean to you." I don't what I said or did to make her say that, but its true. My friends mean the world to me. I would do anyhting for them. And it seems like I have my whole life and for my whole life they have done nothing but END up treating me really badly.
I can't think of one person that I became really close with that didn't walk all over me, except Brandon.
This isn't a pitty party for me, don't read my shit if you think that, this is my place to vent. And I'm not saying that I'm an angel and I never did anything wrong to anybody, but this is how it is for the most part. I am so happy that I'm out of Boulder, from all the drama. I was talking to Jennifer an old friend from Boulder, it seems like everyone who still lives there hasn't grown up, and its still the same old drama bullshit as I left it a year ago. Ha
Well I have to go eat with my dad.
My work kicks ass. I love it.
My boyfriend, oh gosh I love that kid so much, yea he irritates the fuck out of me as I'm sure I do him, but what relationship doesn't have those petty agruments? I don't know where I'd be without him.
Okay here it goes, So I was living in California, loving it to death. I swear that is where I'm ment to be. One day I'll be there again. So anyways, I had to move back, as much as I didn't want too. I felt bad for leaving my roommate, but I knew I had too. Everytime I see my dad he is worse and worse. He is really old and still smokin' and drinkin' hardcore. I know he doesn't have much time left. I used to pray everynight that he would at least be able see me graduate and to my surprise he made it. I never told anyone this....., but that was a big reason why I graduated a year early. I really wanna spend more time with him and #2 it's expensive, and my dad keeps on complaining about money because of my fucking step mom. Well I lied to my roomate. I shouldn't have, but I just felt bad moving out. It's not like I screwed her over or anything, she had that place before she even knew I was moving down there. She was gonna find a roomate once she started school. Well whats the big difference this semester? She can do the same thing. Well my phone doesn't work too well down in Vegas so I didn't talk to her for about 3 weeks. Well her mom came down to my dad's house and told my dad what I said. The only thing that really pissed me off was that she said I failed my classes. Thats fucked up, I didn't an A and a B. I failed astronomy, but he already knew that. Thats just messed up to tall something like that to my dad when she had no idea. I even told Alex what I got, but anyways my dad was pissed, hell I would be too. Well anyways we got it all squared away. Its over and done with. The only thing that I hate, is I lost a pretty good friend. We wern't that close, but we were a lot the same. She was a really good roommate.
Well I just read something I shouln'd have. I just don't understand. It seems like I ment shit to him. I don't want to say anymore. It's fine, and to tell you the truth when we finally ended I didn't think or miss you one bit, for the first time I was truely happy. I actually felt bad for the girl you were gonna date next. She didn't know what she was getting herself into. I don't miss our relationship one bit, it was shit, and you treated me really badly. I'm not saying it was all your fault, but I would have done anything for you and I think everyone knows it.
You will always be a big part in my life for saving me though, for some damn reason I'm ment to be here.
You care so much what they think of you. When there mad at you, you are hurt so badly, but when they do one little thing for you act as though they are your best friends and they never do you wrong. They have all spit in your eye and yet for some reason you don't care. In your eyes they never do anything wrong and their the only ppl. who do you good. Well I have been there for you through everything, you just hurt me really badly. Thats all.
When I was in the hospital, my mom learned a lot from me. As some of you know I am not close with my family. I love my mom so much, she has the biggest heart and was there by my side 24/7 while I was in the hospital. She sacraficed a lot for me those couple of days. When I was all better she said, " I never knew how much your friends mean to you." I don't what I said or did to make her say that, but its true. My friends mean the world to me. I would do anyhting for them. And it seems like I have my whole life and for my whole life they have done nothing but END up treating me really badly.
I can't think of one person that I became really close with that didn't walk all over me, except Brandon.
This isn't a pitty party for me, don't read my shit if you think that, this is my place to vent. And I'm not saying that I'm an angel and I never did anything wrong to anybody, but this is how it is for the most part. I am so happy that I'm out of Boulder, from all the drama. I was talking to Jennifer an old friend from Boulder, it seems like everyone who still lives there hasn't grown up, and its still the same old drama bullshit as I left it a year ago. Ha
Well I have to go eat with my dad.
My work kicks ass. I love it.
My boyfriend, oh gosh I love that kid so much, yea he irritates the fuck out of me as I'm sure I do him, but what relationship doesn't have those petty agruments? I don't know where I'd be without him.