surrender.

[jacquelinenikki]

everything is getting to me and i think i'm going to lose it.
::sigh:: i give up. the world wins. i'm down for the count.

school has been indescribably dull & i just want out.
stuff at home has been on & off, i've just been touchy.
my faith is almost gone & i don't know how to fix that.
i feel like i can't get myself in with the girls anymore
i've been confusing myself with some weird stuff lately.
i'm almost 100% positive i don't deserve nick at all.
i'm not getting nearly the hours at work that i need.
and i've been feeling weird and sick for a week'ish.

uti // superstress // lack of faith // trouble trusting //
retarded self-confidence // exhaustion = too much.

i just need to fastforward time a little and make all of
this over with and have time to process and talk to
people and fix everything in my life and figure out who
i am and what i'm all about, because i think i forgot.

superemo. it's 12.26 and it's been a long week,
cut me some slack here? haha whateverrrr . <3

because we are broken ;;
what must we do to restore our innocence
and the promise that we adored?
give us life again,
because we just want to be whole. <3