paranioa.
definitely having one of those
" everyone is out to get me,
nobody really likes me,
everyone is going to leave me,"
type weeks.
it's super frustrating, and i keep telling
myself i'm just being paranoid, but i
haven't slept well in a week because of
it and i've been having crazy retarded
dreams about it all when i DO sleep.
i know my friends are there for me, but
it's one of those " they like each other a
hell of a lot more than they care about me,
i probably don't matter at all," type things.
& i know nick loves me but i keep having
dreams about him & brianna getting back
together? and that's seriously screwing
with me. i think i need a pysch ward or
something. blegh. & my faith blows bigtime.
maybe that's the problem.
who knowss.
alright, off to another day of "i'm screwing
things up"s and "i'm a failure at everything"s
haha. joyful. whatever, i'll just sleep forever
when i get home from school or something.
unless i have to go to soccer. GOD i hate it
i wish you'd do it again, i'll
watch you leave here limping. <3
" everyone is out to get me,
nobody really likes me,
everyone is going to leave me,"
type weeks.
it's super frustrating, and i keep telling
myself i'm just being paranoid, but i
haven't slept well in a week because of
it and i've been having crazy retarded
dreams about it all when i DO sleep.
i know my friends are there for me, but
it's one of those " they like each other a
hell of a lot more than they care about me,
i probably don't matter at all," type things.
& i know nick loves me but i keep having
dreams about him & brianna getting back
together? and that's seriously screwing
with me. i think i need a pysch ward or
something. blegh. & my faith blows bigtime.
maybe that's the problem.
who knowss.
alright, off to another day of "i'm screwing
things up"s and "i'm a failure at everything"s
haha. joyful. whatever, i'll just sleep forever
when i get home from school or something.
unless i have to go to soccer. GOD i hate it
i wish you'd do it again, i'll
watch you leave here limping. <3