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[jacqueline123]

i have been working all fucking day for the past week. james, however has been laid off from work so he sits at home all day. now i dont mind cleaning the house, doing dishes, doing the laundry, whatever. but he has not helped once since we moved into our suite. i actually unpacked most of his stuff cuz he has been to lazy to do it. whatever, i dont care! but i worked untill 10 on thursday,  worked late on friday, and i was going to be working late tonight. now nina was holding a shindig at my house on sunday so it had to be cleaned. i had been asking james to help at least a little bit all week and he didnt(what a shock). and this morning i pretty much begged him to chip in. even if he cleaned up the floor or did dishes, i would vacuum and bleach the counters. well after going to work, checking on him twice to see if he was actually doing something. i come home to find the entire house completely  trashed. more-so then before and i find that he basically sat on his ass all day, watching movies and south park and then skipped out on me to go to a frat party to get plastered and have me take care of him when he gets home. it wouldn’t really be all that bad if i didnt have to work all day tomorrow(starting at 8:00 am, so i have to be up and on th bus by 6:45) so instead of me falling asleep early so i can actually get up at the break of dawn, i had to basically tear this house apart cleaning james's shit(yes, it is all james's because throughout the week ive been cleaning all my shit so he wouldnt have any excuses..... like that really stopped him)  wow, i fucking cant stand it when this happens. and i swear to god, he's going to stumble in..... drunk.... and he'll pass out like he always does and ill have to dragg him into bed...... test his blood sugar.... pump insulin..... or feed him something, which he will probably hit me for (for waking him up)..... and then i wont be able to wake up in the morning and ill get in trouble..... and he'll act like it never happened.... wont apologize....... wont mention anything about me cleaning everything for him.... and will definitely get pissed that im upset about all this.

is it always going to be like this? is he a really good guy to marry??????

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!