ouch
to start, i HATE this computer.
anywho.
i don't think i've ever felt so betrayed in my life. by myself and by the people i thought i loved, and who i thought loved me. but ohhhhh no. how stupid i was.
i was chastized today. thats the best word for it. i was chastized and reprimanded like a child, as well as made to feel like a piece of shit. i know i should "be strong" and "ignore them" but reality check, i'm insecure like the rest of the world and that inspirational mumbo jumbo doesn't do shit for me.
this person was my best friend. or so i thought. obviously she has priorities, and i am not on the short list.
basically, i was told that i am a shitty rider and i don't know what i'm doing and i use gadgets to compensate for my lack of ability because i'm fucking up her old horse. wow. thanks.
and the worst part was not that she said it, but the way she said it. she treated me like a child who didn't know any better. she talked down to me. and it hurt a lot. i'm so beyond words right now. i can't see how we can go on being friends. no friend i know would ever talk down to another friend like that.
on top of all that, i now never want to ride again because i don't want to fuck anything else up.
gee thanks, bitch.
anywho.
i don't think i've ever felt so betrayed in my life. by myself and by the people i thought i loved, and who i thought loved me. but ohhhhh no. how stupid i was.
i was chastized today. thats the best word for it. i was chastized and reprimanded like a child, as well as made to feel like a piece of shit. i know i should "be strong" and "ignore them" but reality check, i'm insecure like the rest of the world and that inspirational mumbo jumbo doesn't do shit for me.
this person was my best friend. or so i thought. obviously she has priorities, and i am not on the short list.
basically, i was told that i am a shitty rider and i don't know what i'm doing and i use gadgets to compensate for my lack of ability because i'm fucking up her old horse. wow. thanks.
and the worst part was not that she said it, but the way she said it. she treated me like a child who didn't know any better. she talked down to me. and it hurt a lot. i'm so beyond words right now. i can't see how we can go on being friends. no friend i know would ever talk down to another friend like that.
on top of all that, i now never want to ride again because i don't want to fuck anything else up.
gee thanks, bitch.