wow
How to even begin to describe the past few days, I couldn't say. Its been a blur and I can't believe its over. It was a good run, kids.
So, where to start? Affirmation was interesting. because i thought stuber was dying when she left her seat and didn't come back. So i stepped off a little early too and we chilled and then tuned our guitars and put on an amazing performance. chrissy was right on with the bongos, claire sang great, and stuber and i just rocked. so yay for us.
the next day was beyond surreal. graduation. 13 roses. white dresses. all amazing. and i can't believe its over. i managed not to cry until i said goodbye to lucy. that was just when i hit bottom and everything i'd been suppressing all day came flooding out. it was a bizarre day, though. i still don't believe it really happened. it was beautiful and everyone looked beautiful, but we'd been building up to this for so long that in some ways it was anticlimatic. I mean, one day can never surpass 4 brilliant years. but it was definitely amazing. i couldn't take the smile off my face all day. until i got home and then i was just fucking depressed. songs were making me cry. it was baaaad.
however i did have a lovely dinner w/ dev and learned some interesting news - chris murphy took her business out of yarmouth and my fave hot player EVER moved in. oh yes... todd minikus. hotness.
i managed to make it out to margate and i only got lost twice. go me. only was there for 2 days, but DAMN it was fun. chrissy is the funniest drunk i know. it was just fabulous and words can't recreate it. saying goodbye was insane, however. i mean, my heart cannot comprehend losing these people. its never going to be real to me, and someday my fantasy world will crack and i will be heartbroken. but until then, i will survive on their love and the hope of seeing them sometime soon. its a petty lie meant to make us all feel better, but it works and so we'll keep drugging ourselves with it until life takes over.
i'm off to psu this evening for registration tomorrow. tomorrow also happens to be my birthday. i can buy porn, cigarettes, and lottery tickets, AND i can get into clubs. woopah. i think i might send lucy some porn... muhahaha
So, where to start? Affirmation was interesting. because i thought stuber was dying when she left her seat and didn't come back. So i stepped off a little early too and we chilled and then tuned our guitars and put on an amazing performance. chrissy was right on with the bongos, claire sang great, and stuber and i just rocked. so yay for us.
the next day was beyond surreal. graduation. 13 roses. white dresses. all amazing. and i can't believe its over. i managed not to cry until i said goodbye to lucy. that was just when i hit bottom and everything i'd been suppressing all day came flooding out. it was a bizarre day, though. i still don't believe it really happened. it was beautiful and everyone looked beautiful, but we'd been building up to this for so long that in some ways it was anticlimatic. I mean, one day can never surpass 4 brilliant years. but it was definitely amazing. i couldn't take the smile off my face all day. until i got home and then i was just fucking depressed. songs were making me cry. it was baaaad.
however i did have a lovely dinner w/ dev and learned some interesting news - chris murphy took her business out of yarmouth and my fave hot player EVER moved in. oh yes... todd minikus. hotness.
i managed to make it out to margate and i only got lost twice. go me. only was there for 2 days, but DAMN it was fun. chrissy is the funniest drunk i know. it was just fabulous and words can't recreate it. saying goodbye was insane, however. i mean, my heart cannot comprehend losing these people. its never going to be real to me, and someday my fantasy world will crack and i will be heartbroken. but until then, i will survive on their love and the hope of seeing them sometime soon. its a petty lie meant to make us all feel better, but it works and so we'll keep drugging ourselves with it until life takes over.
i'm off to psu this evening for registration tomorrow. tomorrow also happens to be my birthday. i can buy porn, cigarettes, and lottery tickets, AND i can get into clubs. woopah. i think i might send lucy some porn... muhahaha