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Um yeah.. this week couldn't of possibly been anymore hectic.
Tuesday? I think it was Tuesday.. I had my basketball game at OLL. Which we didn't win, but whatever cause we were great. For some reason the hoop didn't really like us and we made a total of.. NO points, but then in the third period i got the ball and made a layup (kinda) and from then on .. we got some points. It ended up being a pretty close game, four point difference or something. I have another game today in Elmwood Park. So we'll see about that.On Wednesday I had the Forensics competition which went pretty well.. 1st place. It's weird though, I'm not excited about it because I know people think that I only got it because of my mom. It's really annoying. My mom & I get so much crap from people, and it's annoying. I wish I could be excited about getting 1st place, cause you know I am. But it's like I can't help but think that everyone is rolling their eyes....Last night I went to the boy's basketball game at OLL against St. Peter's in Irvington. Gosh... we lost, but they played a really great game. The stupid kid in front of us kept looking at us when we cheered in unison. ahaha. I <3 Diana & Alexandra. I wanted Julia, Jenn, Daniel, & Jack to come with us.. but that didn't happen :( Ohh well. This week really isn't going to be that great.. Alexandra can't do anything & Jack's somewhere... I have a game tonight anyway. Tomorrow I have my little conformation mass thing. Should be fun?
i know you want some of that.
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I've found that I have become more and more insecure. One of the problems is that I think I've put on a few pounds. I know I'm not fat, but it's hard to not care about your weight when everyone around you looks, um anorexic. Even looking at the pictures that I posted, makes me feel big. I really do look huge. Have I always been like this? I hope not..... It's like you are only liked or whatever if you are skinny. Well not liked, but appreciated. That bothers me. That to look good you have to have a set of abs. I'm short.. which I can't stand. So instead of getting taller it's all just going to my stomach or whatever. I've always told myself that I shouldn't care about me weight because I look the way I do for a reason. But now, all of that is really just a bunch of bull. I know I'm overreacting, because (I hope...) I'm not that big, but I'm insecure. Especially because of my height too. Everyone is growing around me. I wish I was taller..... I just needed to get that off my chest.