[6/10] Implied Consent
Okay bb, as far as I know, YulSic in this fic are too cute and sweet to be broken up and smitten to pieces like that but then again, I am quite sadistic and I enjoy it. So, expect stuff to happen k bb? Hang in there tho, it's not as sad as Downfall and I already promised fluff. So I won't disappoint, hopefully.
I just finished my exams so it's time to write again. 8) My class got canceled for tonight and there's no class tomorrow so yahooooooooo -jumps for joy-
Lol people still keep on getting confused with the whole masterlist thing. Signing up for it means: You will ONLY get a PM for the prologue/first post of a new fic. If you want to be added to the PM list of that new fic, YOU HAVE TO REPLY ON THAT THREAD.
NO AUTOMATIC PM LIST FOR ALL THE FICS I HAVE ONGOING. NONONONONO.
Masterlist thread is here.
Now, the title for this chapter, I was contemplating if I should make it consistent and make it all Japanese or not. But meh since I'm weirdly awesome like this, I decided to not make it consistent. Rubicon, is that river Julius Caesar crossed back in the day. "Crossing the Rubicon" is like an idiom for going past the point of no return.
Now, enjoy bb. Give me 4-5 pages n I will update! <3.
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Selca 6: Rubicon
“Okay,” you tell her and you let go of her. You are completely unsure of how you should react but you do what is obvious. She does not want to be with you anymore, so you accept it as you may have to do it eventually as well. You sit up to leave her but you still see her motionless on the bed.
She is shedding tears and you begin to feel hurt from what is happening. You lie back down and you hug her again. Your hands are holding hers and you try to be gentle as possible.
“Don’t cry,” you whisper to her and she just holds your hand tighter. You hug her tighter, as it will be the last time that you will have her in your embrace. You decide that it would be better to hide your feelings, as it would just create unnecessary tension for the both of you.
Eventually she falls asleep and you let go of the hand that clasps hers. You kiss her fingertips, something you love to do because it makes her blush so much.
“I love you,” you whisper to her and you smile. You have finally confessed but now you have to end it as well.
You then move the hand that she is holding, and finally, you let go of her.
“Goodbye.”
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For the past few days, she has not been herself when she is with you. You do not know how she is doing as she does not discuss anything with you. Both of you are recovering from the aftermath of what has become the two of you, but you are holding up surprisingly well. You still feel the void and the emptiness without her but you understand that all you have done, is all for her happiness.
You have found that you often take walks to ease your pain and she is practicing harder than ever before. Once in a while when you see each other, you end up looking away upon realizing that you have once again gotten lost in her eyes.
“Yuri, can you come to my room for a sec, my air conditioner’s not working and I can’t figure it out.” Yoona tells you while you are preparing your sandwich. She is watching T.V. with Tiffany and you automatically look her way, just to be reminded that she has no more constraints on you.
You go to Yoona’s room and the air that greets you is dry and hot. You see Seohyun tied to the computer chair with a blindfold on and you look away to the air-conditioner’s position.
“Unnie?” Seohyun asks casually, as if unaware that she has been tied up.
“Hang in there, Hyunnie. I’m gonna die from a heatstroke if this heat continues. Yuri-unnie’s here.” Yoona says while you bend down to fix the switch.
“Uhh…what? Yuri-unnie is here? Er…”
“Relax. She’s used to kinky stuff like this. So don’t worry about it.”
“Isn’t that right?” Yoona asks while leaning over and speaking into your ear. You ignore her as you know that you do not want to be involved at all. “If you want, we can always do a threesome. Seohyun’s pretty kinky.”
Hearing this makes you work faster than you are at the moment. Eventually you get the air-conditioner working and you are relieved.
“Hyunnie, Yuri-unnie fixed the A/C; how about a threesome to celebrate?”
“Uhh-"
“I’m good and you’re welcome.” You say before Seohyun gets a chance to tell you her answer. The door slams shut while you are closing it, startling her and Tiffany and you head to your room.
You think about all the things you have done with her and time seems to have been going faster than usual while you are standing still on what feels like a time lapse.
You sigh as you watch the orange light penetrating your white linen curtains. You hear faint moaning coming from the room next to you. The sound of 50s jazz echoing from Taeyeon’s vinyl turntable. And the sound of television, on this hot afternoon.
All the vibrations buzz around you, enough to keep you relaxed. But just like an addiction that you are trying so hard to pacify, you know that the only drug--or rather sound, that can truly do that is her voice.
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You awake at dawn and you are hit with the reality that she is not next to you again. You decide to grind your ma and you will be heading off to your jog.
You go to the refrigerator and take out a root of ma. Then you pick up eggs and you start waiting for the skillet to heat. Just when you crack the first egg, you realize that you are no longer doing this for her. You suddenly feel pain in your chest and tears suddenly blur your vision. You do not understand these new emotions but you know that you are hurting.
You decide to turn off the pan and you try your hardest to hold your tears.
Unfortunately, those tears keep on flowing and the only thing you can do is wipe them off.
Your crying finally ceases and you go on with your daily routine. You go for your jog, shower, and you practice until night. This goes on for several days and you find yourself distancing away from her as each day passes by.
The spring air is cold and you end up going out for dinner. She has been spending more time with the other girls, and you are often left alone. Yoona is always with Seohyun and Tiffany and Taeyeon are always with her.
It is a holiday and you walk around the city. You look at the buildings surrounding it and you find it bare of people. You wander around and you look for a place to eat. You have no plans of going home for the next few hours so you decide to go to a tofu shop. The songs that play around the bar remind you of the Jazz songs that Taeyeon would play in the afternoon.
You place your order and while you eat, you find everything empty, just like the previous days. You understand that she is the cause of the void but you do not understand the reason why the void exists.
You hear the faint sound of the pedestrian light and you see people walking across it.
Then you hear screaming coming from the other side with a man running towards your direction. You hear a car screech and the last thing you remember are people screaming in shock.
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You stay frozen on your tracks as you have experienced the reaper do its job, inches away from you. A man is holding a girl’s corpse with tears on his face, next to a car with a broken windshield. A few seconds ago, you had been walking behind the girl and now, you see her dead and lifeless with blood staining her body.
The man is crying and he is screaming out promises that the girl cannot hear anymore. His promises of getting married, growing old and having a family together are echoing around the entire intersection. People are as still as you and then the paramedics eventually come and you get shoved off to the side. They try to revive the girl through the AED machine but you still see her lifeless.
You are shaken from what just happened and you stay in the same position for a good hour.
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You are walking home and you still are feeling the aftershock from what you have seen. The sense of despair that the man has felt as he held his lover is something that is bothering you. You are scared that you would face the same fate without her. Being able to see her smiling in a moment and lifeless in the next, scares you. You arrive in front of your dorm building and you cannot help but cry again. You are in love with her and you cannot leave your feelings concealed as you know that your future is uncertain.
She is the reason you have been in bliss for the past few weeks and you have been trying to deny your addiction for the last few days. Your boldness in assuming that you can survive without her, your altruistic acts of choosing whatever that is good for her, your selflessness in honoring your decision have all fallen down, as you have come to the realization that your life is nothing without her.
Life itself, is nothing without her.
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The elevator door greets you and you look at the numbers as they ascend to the floor where the dorm is.
You open the door and she is lying down on the couch with a book over her face. She is looking at you with the same pufferfish face she has greeted people with before. The loud sound of R&B is booming from Yoona’s room and it is out of place with the entire thing. You approach her and she looks at you intently.
You place your hands on hers and you tug her close, hugging her tightly, letting her feel your trembling.
Your heart thumps uncontrollably and you find it hard to breathe. She somehow understands and she hugs you back.
“I don’t want to let you go.” You tell her and your emotions are flowing out and as you utter the words, you finally know exactly what you want.
Her hand stops caressing you and she is processing the information you are giving.
You let go and you look at her face to face. Her face is beautiful, still just as beautiful as the last time you has seen her. Then you touch her, just to make sure that it is really her in front of you.
You share a simple kiss and at this moment, you are convinced that you must fight for your love.
Fight for her until your final breath, until you reach your limit, until you break and until you shatter.
“Jessica, please don’t leave me.”
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Thanks tini for proofreading. Lol btw I'm surprised that there are so many Filipino S<3NEs. ^ ^ Pinoy din ako. Well, Filipino-Chinese but that's the same imho.
I'm gonna TRY to write the TaeNy fic tonight.
I just finished my exams so it's time to write again. 8) My class got canceled for tonight and there's no class tomorrow so yahooooooooo -jumps for joy-
Lol people still keep on getting confused with the whole masterlist thing. Signing up for it means: You will ONLY get a PM for the prologue/first post of a new fic. If you want to be added to the PM list of that new fic, YOU HAVE TO REPLY ON THAT THREAD.
NO AUTOMATIC PM LIST FOR ALL THE FICS I HAVE ONGOING. NONONONONO.
Masterlist thread is here.
Now, the title for this chapter, I was contemplating if I should make it consistent and make it all Japanese or not. But meh since I'm weirdly awesome like this, I decided to not make it consistent. Rubicon, is that river Julius Caesar crossed back in the day. "Crossing the Rubicon" is like an idiom for going past the point of no return.
Now, enjoy bb. Give me 4-5 pages n I will update! <3.
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Selca 6: Rubicon
“Okay,” you tell her and you let go of her. You are completely unsure of how you should react but you do what is obvious. She does not want to be with you anymore, so you accept it as you may have to do it eventually as well. You sit up to leave her but you still see her motionless on the bed.
She is shedding tears and you begin to feel hurt from what is happening. You lie back down and you hug her again. Your hands are holding hers and you try to be gentle as possible.
“Don’t cry,” you whisper to her and she just holds your hand tighter. You hug her tighter, as it will be the last time that you will have her in your embrace. You decide that it would be better to hide your feelings, as it would just create unnecessary tension for the both of you.
Eventually she falls asleep and you let go of the hand that clasps hers. You kiss her fingertips, something you love to do because it makes her blush so much.
“I love you,” you whisper to her and you smile. You have finally confessed but now you have to end it as well.
You then move the hand that she is holding, and finally, you let go of her.
“Goodbye.”
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For the past few days, she has not been herself when she is with you. You do not know how she is doing as she does not discuss anything with you. Both of you are recovering from the aftermath of what has become the two of you, but you are holding up surprisingly well. You still feel the void and the emptiness without her but you understand that all you have done, is all for her happiness.
You have found that you often take walks to ease your pain and she is practicing harder than ever before. Once in a while when you see each other, you end up looking away upon realizing that you have once again gotten lost in her eyes.
“Yuri, can you come to my room for a sec, my air conditioner’s not working and I can’t figure it out.” Yoona tells you while you are preparing your sandwich. She is watching T.V. with Tiffany and you automatically look her way, just to be reminded that she has no more constraints on you.
You go to Yoona’s room and the air that greets you is dry and hot. You see Seohyun tied to the computer chair with a blindfold on and you look away to the air-conditioner’s position.
“Unnie?” Seohyun asks casually, as if unaware that she has been tied up.
“Hang in there, Hyunnie. I’m gonna die from a heatstroke if this heat continues. Yuri-unnie’s here.” Yoona says while you bend down to fix the switch.
“Uhh…what? Yuri-unnie is here? Er…”
“Relax. She’s used to kinky stuff like this. So don’t worry about it.”
“Isn’t that right?” Yoona asks while leaning over and speaking into your ear. You ignore her as you know that you do not want to be involved at all. “If you want, we can always do a threesome. Seohyun’s pretty kinky.”
Hearing this makes you work faster than you are at the moment. Eventually you get the air-conditioner working and you are relieved.
“Hyunnie, Yuri-unnie fixed the A/C; how about a threesome to celebrate?”
“Uhh-"
“I’m good and you’re welcome.” You say before Seohyun gets a chance to tell you her answer. The door slams shut while you are closing it, startling her and Tiffany and you head to your room.
You think about all the things you have done with her and time seems to have been going faster than usual while you are standing still on what feels like a time lapse.
You sigh as you watch the orange light penetrating your white linen curtains. You hear faint moaning coming from the room next to you. The sound of 50s jazz echoing from Taeyeon’s vinyl turntable. And the sound of television, on this hot afternoon.
All the vibrations buzz around you, enough to keep you relaxed. But just like an addiction that you are trying so hard to pacify, you know that the only drug--or rather sound, that can truly do that is her voice.
--------------------------------------------------------------------
You awake at dawn and you are hit with the reality that she is not next to you again. You decide to grind your ma and you will be heading off to your jog.
You go to the refrigerator and take out a root of ma. Then you pick up eggs and you start waiting for the skillet to heat. Just when you crack the first egg, you realize that you are no longer doing this for her. You suddenly feel pain in your chest and tears suddenly blur your vision. You do not understand these new emotions but you know that you are hurting.
You decide to turn off the pan and you try your hardest to hold your tears.
Unfortunately, those tears keep on flowing and the only thing you can do is wipe them off.
Your crying finally ceases and you go on with your daily routine. You go for your jog, shower, and you practice until night. This goes on for several days and you find yourself distancing away from her as each day passes by.
The spring air is cold and you end up going out for dinner. She has been spending more time with the other girls, and you are often left alone. Yoona is always with Seohyun and Tiffany and Taeyeon are always with her.
It is a holiday and you walk around the city. You look at the buildings surrounding it and you find it bare of people. You wander around and you look for a place to eat. You have no plans of going home for the next few hours so you decide to go to a tofu shop. The songs that play around the bar remind you of the Jazz songs that Taeyeon would play in the afternoon.
You place your order and while you eat, you find everything empty, just like the previous days. You understand that she is the cause of the void but you do not understand the reason why the void exists.
You hear the faint sound of the pedestrian light and you see people walking across it.
Then you hear screaming coming from the other side with a man running towards your direction. You hear a car screech and the last thing you remember are people screaming in shock.
-------------------------------------------------------
You stay frozen on your tracks as you have experienced the reaper do its job, inches away from you. A man is holding a girl’s corpse with tears on his face, next to a car with a broken windshield. A few seconds ago, you had been walking behind the girl and now, you see her dead and lifeless with blood staining her body.
The man is crying and he is screaming out promises that the girl cannot hear anymore. His promises of getting married, growing old and having a family together are echoing around the entire intersection. People are as still as you and then the paramedics eventually come and you get shoved off to the side. They try to revive the girl through the AED machine but you still see her lifeless.
You are shaken from what just happened and you stay in the same position for a good hour.
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You are walking home and you still are feeling the aftershock from what you have seen. The sense of despair that the man has felt as he held his lover is something that is bothering you. You are scared that you would face the same fate without her. Being able to see her smiling in a moment and lifeless in the next, scares you. You arrive in front of your dorm building and you cannot help but cry again. You are in love with her and you cannot leave your feelings concealed as you know that your future is uncertain.
She is the reason you have been in bliss for the past few weeks and you have been trying to deny your addiction for the last few days. Your boldness in assuming that you can survive without her, your altruistic acts of choosing whatever that is good for her, your selflessness in honoring your decision have all fallen down, as you have come to the realization that your life is nothing without her.
Life itself, is nothing without her.
----------------------------------------------------------
The elevator door greets you and you look at the numbers as they ascend to the floor where the dorm is.
You open the door and she is lying down on the couch with a book over her face. She is looking at you with the same pufferfish face she has greeted people with before. The loud sound of R&B is booming from Yoona’s room and it is out of place with the entire thing. You approach her and she looks at you intently.
You place your hands on hers and you tug her close, hugging her tightly, letting her feel your trembling.
Your heart thumps uncontrollably and you find it hard to breathe. She somehow understands and she hugs you back.
“I don’t want to let you go.” You tell her and your emotions are flowing out and as you utter the words, you finally know exactly what you want.
Her hand stops caressing you and she is processing the information you are giving.
You let go and you look at her face to face. Her face is beautiful, still just as beautiful as the last time you has seen her. Then you touch her, just to make sure that it is really her in front of you.
You share a simple kiss and at this moment, you are convinced that you must fight for your love.
Fight for her until your final breath, until you reach your limit, until you break and until you shatter.
“Jessica, please don’t leave me.”
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Thanks tini for proofreading. Lol btw I'm surprised that there are so many Filipino S<3NEs. ^ ^ Pinoy din ako. Well, Filipino-Chinese but that's the same imho.
I'm gonna TRY to write the TaeNy fic tonight.