End of the holidays
I am dreading tommorow because we have to go back to school.
Hmmmm I wonder how mant times I'm gonna get called emo in a day?
I can't wear long sleeves because it's summer over here, or even armbands because the school is so strict.
Oh well I guess I'll survive......
Hmmmm I wonder how mant times I'm gonna get called emo in a day?
I can't wear long sleeves because it's summer over here, or even armbands because the school is so strict.
Oh well I guess I'll survive......
I seriously think of you everyday. I would be happy forever if we could somehow live closer to eachother.
I want to help you too, if you would like.
I'm trying very hard to stop cutting, and it's really helping talking to someone.
Have you ever talked to someone in real life (such as a counselor, parent, etc) about how you're feeling?
Seriously. If not, I highly urge you to talk to a counselor at least.
I want you to be safe, and I really care about you, Cass.
I've been diagnosed with "major depression with some psychotic features" (grrr, I almost slapped Dr when he told me that), and post-truamatic stress disorder.
I've been in counseling for almost a year now, and I'm on tons of medicines.
Here- this is a very good article about depression on a website I go on. My username on teenhelp is Broken_Smile
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/showthread.php?t=161
Feel free to comment or message me if you need someone. I'm here, Cass.
Take care.
Endless Emo Love
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I actually (you might not believe it)think about you everyday too. I was going to tell you but I thought you'd get freaked out or something.
Hopefully some day soon - doubt it- I'll get to America. Maybe we could meet up one day?
I really do appreciate every thing you've done for me, so, thanks.
I have tried talking to my school friends but they can't understand it. I think they are about to give up on me :(.....
Do counsellors help?
Hmmmmm "psychotic features" what does that involve?
That website seems helpful I'm going to make a username now...I'll tell you what it is soon.
Hugs
Emo Love (you know how much)
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I live in Pennsylvania (USA).
They don't understand at all. :(
I hope that we can meet up someday too.
I appreciate having you. :)
You actually understand me, and I can talk to you about anything.
I actually don't have any close friends right now. If I do, they ditched me in or middle school or because I went emo.
Fuck them. They weren't friends anyway.
Counselors have helped me through so much.
The first time I opened up and spilled about my depression and self-harm was on February 22nd, 2008. (The wonders of journals)
I was crying and stuff, but my mom was kind of supportive about it. And my school guidance called my house and talked to my mom before I came home from school that day.
And then I was put in the psychiatric unit....twice. It's nothing to be ashamed of really.
And my dad kept getting mad at me, telling me to just snap out of my depression, and after....at least 6 family therapy sessions, he sort of started to understand it.
Psychotic features can be hearing and seeing things that may not be there. feeling things, etc.
Teenhelp and MCR have actually saved me from committing suicide numerous times. But since I've meet you, I think of you before I do anything. I would never leave you. That's for sure. I really love you (in a non-creepy way though)
Forever Emo Love
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But why do you want to come to Australia??
I know how you feel. I'm misunderstood too, except by you :)
My old friends did that too when I started being emo:(
On Monday I think if i don't chiken out, I'll get myself an appointment with a counsellor.
:) or maybe :(???
You make me hate myself just a little bit less:)
Yeah MCR has the power too do that. They've helped me too. I love Gerard forever and ever. He is awesome.And quite beautiful.
I still think about suicide nearly every day :(
Oh I can't believe my so called "friends". They want me to stop talking to my emo online friends forever.
I would miss you so much Keish, you are the most supportive,caring,loving e.t.c. friend I have ever had.I wish they realised that......
Thankyou so so so much. Words aren't enough to say how much you mean to me
I love you too
Endless Emo Love
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(in a non-creepy way of course)
You're the only person that seems to understand me right now.
On Monday, I'll be cheering for you, Cass. You're very brave for doing this.
You make me feel like I belong. :)
MCR is saving me!
I love all of them the same. I once had a dream that Gerard was my brother or something. O_o
Awwww
(hugs)
I'm actually crying a bit as I read these comments. You're so sweet, understanding, awesome, etc, etc.
Maybe you could show your friends these comments to show how we're supporting eachother? idk. Just an idea.
I would be lost without you.
Endless Emo Love
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I don't know but maybe you could stay at my house?
(non-creepishly obviously)
You are actually one of the only things in my life keeping me from killing myself right now.
Believe it or not I forgot to get an appointment! I'll try tommorow.
We (emos) have to stick together. we couldn't make it through alone....
Awwwwww thanks Keish.I kinda cried too.
Good idea, I will. :)
Do you still cut yourself every day?
I feel so much better after talking to you.
I love you forever.
Endless Emo Love
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You're one of the main reasons why I'm safe, alive, and I wake up everyday okay.
I hope everything goes well with your counselor tomorrow.
You deserve tons of cookies for opening up/talking to a counselor. xD
No, I don't cut everyday anymore. I'm slowly trying to quit, and I relapse every few weeks or so. I'm better than where I was.
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Hey that's really great :) I do every day......
Kinda in a happy mood now coz this girl in my class didn't know I was emo (everyone else does) and she told me she used to be emo too and told me some bands she likes and gave me some tips on cutting and how not to make it obvious etc.
She's pretty awesome.
But not as awesome as you! :)
I have a stupid smile on my face right now, I can't get rid of it. That's what your comments do to me :)
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This girl in my class didn't know I was emo until today when she saw my scars. She was actually really nice about it and she told me she used to be one, and some bands she likes and even gave me tips on how to be not so obvious with my cutting.
She's pretty awesome.
But you're way better.
I have a stupid grin on my face and I couldn't get rid of it if I tried. That's what your comments do. :)
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