I tried my best
I tried. I can honestly say I tried. I was going to church, reading my bible, and even started a weekly bible study at my house. I would read the bible and study the bible and pray. I was seeking the truth and was told that if I seek the truth that I would find it.
But one day while reading and studying it hit me. I had to laugh. This is all bullshit. There is no personal god. There was some type of creative force at one point. Whether it be a higher power or just an undiscovered particle that when mixed with a particular quantum system formed organic matter. Whatever it was, it is not here now. It is long gone. We are not the creation of some almighty being and a part of his or her divine plan. We are a cosmic accident. We are a biological mutation that will eventually become extinct.
Of course now it begs the question where did everything come from if there is no god? What made all of the matter and particles and gases that caused the big bang? Religious people love that argument because they know that no one knows. But then when you turn the table and ask where god came from they will tell you that he always is and always will be. So if god can be eternal why can't the universe? The universe has always been and always will be. Fuck it, if you are going to throw a completely illogical answer at me, I will throw it right back.
Now I am not ruling out the possibility of something creating us. But there is no personal god. There is no god that demands you praise it and love it and dedicate your life to it or else you can burn in eternal torment. That is not the attitude of an almighty being. That is the attitude of a jealous girlfriend.
Also don't give me this numerology shit. I have several books on the math in the bible. "The math is so perfect that no man could have created it!" I know the bible places significance on numbers time and time again. I'll admit, that math was pretty impressive… well until I leaned about My Dear Aunt Sally. Then when I realized that none of the math in the bible goes beyond basic multiplication I lost interest in that. You don't even have to understand Please Excuse to understand it. (If you don't know what I mean by Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally then do a quick google search.)
But one day while reading and studying it hit me. I had to laugh. This is all bullshit. There is no personal god. There was some type of creative force at one point. Whether it be a higher power or just an undiscovered particle that when mixed with a particular quantum system formed organic matter. Whatever it was, it is not here now. It is long gone. We are not the creation of some almighty being and a part of his or her divine plan. We are a cosmic accident. We are a biological mutation that will eventually become extinct.
Of course now it begs the question where did everything come from if there is no god? What made all of the matter and particles and gases that caused the big bang? Religious people love that argument because they know that no one knows. But then when you turn the table and ask where god came from they will tell you that he always is and always will be. So if god can be eternal why can't the universe? The universe has always been and always will be. Fuck it, if you are going to throw a completely illogical answer at me, I will throw it right back.
Now I am not ruling out the possibility of something creating us. But there is no personal god. There is no god that demands you praise it and love it and dedicate your life to it or else you can burn in eternal torment. That is not the attitude of an almighty being. That is the attitude of a jealous girlfriend.
Also don't give me this numerology shit. I have several books on the math in the bible. "The math is so perfect that no man could have created it!" I know the bible places significance on numbers time and time again. I'll admit, that math was pretty impressive… well until I leaned about My Dear Aunt Sally. Then when I realized that none of the math in the bible goes beyond basic multiplication I lost interest in that. You don't even have to understand Please Excuse to understand it. (If you don't know what I mean by Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally then do a quick google search.)