I've Read The Definiton a Million Times And I Still Son't Know What Love Means
Despite this stupid holiday, and despite recent events, I feel really good right now.
And I learned it is possible to feel embarrassed, hurt and liberated all at the same time.
Knowing that you can just let go is so amazing. Knowing that you did all you could, that it wasn't the right fit and knowing that now you can just...walk away and move on. Wow. I was lucky though. I didn't lose anything in this, I only learned. It will be ok. Now I can just focus on having fun and letting go of all of the crazy baggage that came with the past 3 months almost. I always knew that I got attached easily, that I care a lot very quickly. But, now I'm learning to let go in the same fashion. There is so much grace and peace to be found in accepting what's happening around you. This all sounds so hippy-chessey I know, sorry, but that's really how I feel right now. Ask me again when I go to bed tonight with little else to think about, or when I wake up tomorrow pressed against the wall and I very well may give you an entirely different philosophy. Or maybe not.... hmmm.
I got a job! I start tomorrow! and yeah I'm nervous! It's a cool office and the people there are nice, but the only REAL job I've ever had only required me to make ice cream cones, add totals and know exactly what's in a Boston shake. Few of those skills will help me in an office. lol. Though you never know when someone might need to know how cold you need to keep soft-serve. I'm sure it will be fine, but I'm just being me... worried.
I'm feeling very folky and acoustic lately. I discovered Ray LaMontagne's Jolene....love it! Amos Lee and Holly Brook. Also listening to alot of Patty but that's nothing new. She makes me feel better about life in general.
so the general concensus is thumbs up. I mean if I were going to be all pouty about my situation it would be today wouldn't it?!? yes it would! so, it's all just drifting from here : )
And I learned it is possible to feel embarrassed, hurt and liberated all at the same time.
Knowing that you can just let go is so amazing. Knowing that you did all you could, that it wasn't the right fit and knowing that now you can just...walk away and move on. Wow. I was lucky though. I didn't lose anything in this, I only learned. It will be ok. Now I can just focus on having fun and letting go of all of the crazy baggage that came with the past 3 months almost. I always knew that I got attached easily, that I care a lot very quickly. But, now I'm learning to let go in the same fashion. There is so much grace and peace to be found in accepting what's happening around you. This all sounds so hippy-chessey I know, sorry, but that's really how I feel right now. Ask me again when I go to bed tonight with little else to think about, or when I wake up tomorrow pressed against the wall and I very well may give you an entirely different philosophy. Or maybe not.... hmmm.
I got a job! I start tomorrow! and yeah I'm nervous! It's a cool office and the people there are nice, but the only REAL job I've ever had only required me to make ice cream cones, add totals and know exactly what's in a Boston shake. Few of those skills will help me in an office. lol. Though you never know when someone might need to know how cold you need to keep soft-serve. I'm sure it will be fine, but I'm just being me... worried.
I'm feeling very folky and acoustic lately. I discovered Ray LaMontagne's Jolene....love it! Amos Lee and Holly Brook. Also listening to alot of Patty but that's nothing new. She makes me feel better about life in general.
so the general concensus is thumbs up. I mean if I were going to be all pouty about my situation it would be today wouldn't it?!? yes it would! so, it's all just drifting from here : )