I Could Make The Sun Go Pale
I'm not an asshole anymore.
Not by choice mind you, I don't get that much credit. I don't have that much moral fiber. I confessed. I told. I shared my feelings, basically by force. And the gist of the reaction was..."What to say..... that's really very sweet. Don't worry nothing is different in my eyes." Except it is different. I can feel it already. Changing because I couldn't keep my mouth shut. Honestly I was expecting some kind of reciprocation. And there was neither conformation or denial. Which is an answer in and of itself. And I'm hurt. Knew it had to come at some point, but I didn't think it would be this soon. Or kind of hurt this much. I just don't want to be in this skin anymore at times like this.
This is so teenage bullshit scene to say but:
"What's wrong with me?"
seriously.
Not by choice mind you, I don't get that much credit. I don't have that much moral fiber. I confessed. I told. I shared my feelings, basically by force. And the gist of the reaction was..."What to say..... that's really very sweet. Don't worry nothing is different in my eyes." Except it is different. I can feel it already. Changing because I couldn't keep my mouth shut. Honestly I was expecting some kind of reciprocation. And there was neither conformation or denial. Which is an answer in and of itself. And I'm hurt. Knew it had to come at some point, but I didn't think it would be this soon. Or kind of hurt this much. I just don't want to be in this skin anymore at times like this.
This is so teenage bullshit scene to say but:
"What's wrong with me?"
seriously.