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"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in
our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was somone I
knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about
horses. The last girl I love will be somone I havent even met
yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people
you love who do something else; they define how you classify
what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important
people in your life, and youll meet maybe four or five of these
people over the span of 80 years. But theres still one more tier
to all this; there is always one person who you love who becomes
that definition. It usually happens retrospectivly, but it always
happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets
the template for what you will always love about other people
even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and
unreasonable. You will remember having conversations with
this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual
trysts with this person that never technically occured. This is
because the indiviual who embodies your personal definition
of love does not really exsist. The person is real, and the feelings
are real--but you create the context. And context is every-
thing. The person who defines your understanding of love is not
inherently different than anyone else, and theyre often just the
person you happen to meet the first time you really, really
want to love somone. But that person still wins. They win, and
you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how
you feel about everyone else."
-Chuck Klosterman
Killing Yourself To Live.
our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was somone I
knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about
horses. The last girl I love will be somone I havent even met
yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people
you love who do something else; they define how you classify
what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important
people in your life, and youll meet maybe four or five of these
people over the span of 80 years. But theres still one more tier
to all this; there is always one person who you love who becomes
that definition. It usually happens retrospectivly, but it always
happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets
the template for what you will always love about other people
even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and
unreasonable. You will remember having conversations with
this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual
trysts with this person that never technically occured. This is
because the indiviual who embodies your personal definition
of love does not really exsist. The person is real, and the feelings
are real--but you create the context. And context is every-
thing. The person who defines your understanding of love is not
inherently different than anyone else, and theyre often just the
person you happen to meet the first time you really, really
want to love somone. But that person still wins. They win, and
you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how
you feel about everyone else."
-Chuck Klosterman
Killing Yourself To Live.