Caring about people....
Well, I'm sitting here, after Willis has left thinking. I've had a big guard up about guys for a long time. Why? I have no idea. I seem to think it's cause all they want is sex. Mandy seems to think it's cause I've never had a real relationship, and I agree. I've not had anyone to treat me hugely wrong, but I've never had anyone to show me how it could be. I've met Willis and I've been spending a lot of time with him, either at my house, or on the net, or on the phone. He seems like a good guy. A guy that I could probably like if I were to let myself do so. I'm scared of getting hurt. I'm also scared of how dad will react to him. Being black may not be an issue for dad like I think it will be, but it could also be a huge factor. I don't want to dissapoint my dad but I he's also told me it's not right to judge others on how they look or whatever. I do think Willis really likes me, and I'm hopeing that if I tell my parents about us, that it won't blow up in my face to be some huge deal where everything falls apart. Enough of my whinning now, lata.
Jacky
Jacky