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i broke up with aj last night. i shouldn't have to try to make it work. & i certainly shouldn't be the ONLY ONE trying to make it work. deciding whether or not to break up with him has seriously been THE hardest decision i've EVER had to make. & when i figured that out, i realized it was absurd. "break up.. or not?" THAT'S the damn question of my life? gahhh, this probably makes no sense to anybody but myself. whatever, something just clicked yesterday. after it happened, every song that came on the radio as i was driving home told me i made the right decision. so that made me feel better. i'm in a weird state right now.. like floating. dont' really know where i am or what's around me, or even how far away i am from those surroundings. plus side is i'm calm.. VERYYY calm. like i don't mind that i'm floating or something. interesting feeling =]
either way, i'm one of those people that doesn't hold grudges, or mind the past. you could say i love everyone, & certainly don't hate anyone. so when aj said he wasn't gonna play open mic tonight i was like "WTF, lameee! why?" & he said it was because he didn't think i would want him to. want him to be around me & shit. need time to myself or whatever. which just shows after all this, he really DOESN'T know me. whatever. i told him we were all going to the nutty tonight BECAUSE he was playing, so if he wasn't planning on doing that anymore, it would be nice to let everyone know. then he said he DOES want to play & will see if he can get a ride. & let everyone know what the deal is.
on a lighter note, me & dawn found the love [singular] of our lives last night. we're willing to share with eachother. we're ordering pizza tonight even though we already ate because we know he's the delivery boy. *wink* ..don't worry though, dan - we're still double teaming you <3
hmm, idk. dyed my hair blue. but it came out green. &blonde. it's weird. but then, so am i.
GAHHH, i wanna go out dancing already! amadeus amadeus needs to h i t m e u p.
either way, i'm one of those people that doesn't hold grudges, or mind the past. you could say i love everyone, & certainly don't hate anyone. so when aj said he wasn't gonna play open mic tonight i was like "WTF, lameee! why?" & he said it was because he didn't think i would want him to. want him to be around me & shit. need time to myself or whatever. which just shows after all this, he really DOESN'T know me. whatever. i told him we were all going to the nutty tonight BECAUSE he was playing, so if he wasn't planning on doing that anymore, it would be nice to let everyone know. then he said he DOES want to play & will see if he can get a ride. & let everyone know what the deal is.
on a lighter note, me & dawn found the love [singular] of our lives last night. we're willing to share with eachother. we're ordering pizza tonight even though we already ate because we know he's the delivery boy. *wink* ..don't worry though, dan - we're still double teaming you <3
hmm, idk. dyed my hair blue. but it came out green. &blonde. it's weird. but then, so am i.
GAHHH, i wanna go out dancing already! amadeus amadeus needs to h i t m e u p.