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[jackwad]

I have medical shit going on right now, and it's fucking scary. I'm sure it will all turn out to be something totally banal, but still. This year seems to be designed the expose all my weaknesses as a human being, and there is nothing I'm more weak in the face of then getting blood drawn. Just the feeling of that rubber thing they tie around your arm makes me reel.

I'm also quitting smoking, which is fairly easy for me, but still odd. I've never been a very consistant smoker, but still, it's been a part for many years. I have a hard time believing that I will really never smoke again.